Speech Of Silence



Watch silence of humans' soul,

Not empty as all told,

Look deeper my dear,

For that's what we hold,

Look wiser my dear,

To read the speech of silence.




A small Road



A small road,

ahead of me,

narraowing each and every step,

Brittles every second,

Towards a silvery end,

Undiscovered.



In the darkest moment,

Feel the light,

that once shine me,

Catch the wind,

that once swept me,

Find again the path to reality.



I will rise up,

To watch the spring of summer,

The blooming of blossoms' dew,

The love of humanity.


~2007~

~ Transparent dress, shall be fitted by a dramaqueen~

There are times where life doesnt go your way,

thats when you feel you are alone,

a lonely soul out in the deep dark night,

though its shinning brightly outside,

however not in the inside.

when you whine and sigh,

you expect everyone to shudder away,

maybe miles and miles apart,

for the trouble you are,

for the words you bring.

Then, when you are in misery,

like nothing could save you indeed,

someone step out and lend their ear,

for hours and hours of cries,

not to mention old whiney rhymn,

and "something that crosses the line",

sounds quite silly for me to rewind.

Till today,

i know you will be there,

carving smiles as you go around,

just like before,

i m able to shine on others,

bringing rainbow wherever i go,

walking the lane with you.

All these,

thanks to you,

for being there no matter what i do,

Though i weep or coo,

never once bored frm my company,

never once ever rejected me,

accepting me for who i am inside.

(call me obese then..^^outside what..)

Thus by this,

i promise you,

i will be here with you,

being your support to lay on,

though if the world turn their back on you,

no worries,

i am here for you,

for forever shall come,

for now i conclude,

thanks again to you,

for taking me with feeling no less,

This one is for you,

my transparent dress.

~solar chandelier~

Yeah its me again..well it wud be nut if its not me isnt it..yeah..gud news..my nails grown long already but sad..sch is gonna reopen n i gotta cut them off....but at least not now(well i admit i have scratched my piano keys..i din mean it!n my calculator and my brother...i din mean it too!) yeah..i m over it...haha..okok.... you have a lot of other friends out there...its a world for u to discover..(break my words bout wat i told ya ystdy..but only a little..^^)its oky..i understand..i m still here fr you ...see ya if theres tomorrow...


oh dear...a week hols and i m lazy like a pig...gosh...i gotta catch up wif studies soon..hahahha

^^

I wouldnt know what is goin on with me..frequently..i revert
to the older version of me..though i never change..few years back..i often felt
like i am just a soul in a body of me..like i am watching my life passing
through me in the outside world. I no longer recognise who am i and what am i
doin in this earth surface.its like i am seing the world from the inside of my
soul instead of the outside me, time passing through outside.i no longer
recognise people around me as they are. I question myself, the meaning of my
life..the route i shall take and what is my purpose in the world, living. Its
very simple actually.In this stage of my life, where i actually experience
laziness,well..its a part of human nature i wouldnt object. Its the feeling of
wanting to experience everything. but now, i often feel apart of myself only is
living life as it is..eat, sleep, shopping,reading and other basic living stuff
while the other part of me is watching the other part doing all these to
continue my life as a human. I have no idea what i could do to bring both part
in humn again. still,when i search my role in the world, i realise it wasnt
about myself all the long, it was for others but i am glad. I love my
family..and my friends. In future, i really wanted to do something for
them..now..i would like to push myself to the edge where i can excell and get to
achieve my ambition. By then, i can help more than only a person(myself), i can
help others in the world, those who need me there..my family, friends and other
people here and overboard where countries are striving, where people are
starving, where human beings are pushed to the limit just to survive their live,
just over the minimal living border, unlike here, with abundant of sources and
living helps, people wants more than they can get..its again,human nature.
Maybe, my dreams sounds to high up if you would say, and all i can say is, my
journey wouldnt be easy, it will even be called tough. indeed. but, i promise
myself, my family and the world, i have tried my best, i am trying my best and i
will always try my best. In the end, i will leave the rest to god. I know i am
nothing compared to other great people that i know, saved many, give lives to
many. I know i am just a small character in this puzzle of the world, a
miniscule indeed.unnoticed, but i know, if i made it to my dreams, i will be
able to play my part and purpose in this world. To make the world a better
place. I know people will say what an ordinary girl like me could do, but i will
prove to myself and the world,that i will try my very best to reach them.To
bring hope and touch the lives of others, like how n family and friends
did.Pray for me, to help me to help others. I know its not easy at all, but its
worth the try. Worth the try.

~ReAcHiNg OuT~

its a SUNDAY mornin and i really had nothing to do.. fine..that is not entirely true but you get it dont you...hmm..yeap..dont remind me bout exam...i m still in a numb mode over here..oh yeah!i have something to think about....YOU! (p/s..just say it wouldnt you..i m bored watching the soap opera already...quick...you all dont wanna regret though..and i am entirely happy about it...dont worry...^^sorry bout the interuption though....i am just a curious person..think as if i am not here okay?like invisible..and i will never...NEVER ,NEVER..i repeat NEVER do that again...haha....that will be the last..(What?at least i will try my best..i noe i am damn bzbd..maybe it increases with my age..ya..ya..you are young..i gotta admit..O.O) I AM SO SORRY....and i mean it..seriously....FORGIVE ME OKAY....keke...well....anyway..hmm...j'aime jouer 'reversi online' parce que mon amies parle bien francais avec moi mais ills parle peu anglais...they kinda different from me...and i dont noe who are they anyway...but they are fun..oh ya...talking bout this....still no matter what happens..i still couldnt beat WEI HONG!!reversi master la...but my skills are karat anyway..its up to nothing in the end....sorry! curisity kills! i wanna noe what is goin on with you all..lalala....so excited...but i might not be true..so if you guys felt its true then its true!yeah! that will suffice to make up my day...sunny day......

~CuRiOuS AnD SoRrY~

MSG FR DIFF HUMAN

P./s 1~FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE

P/s 2~(I AM STILL A STUDENT>>)^^

HI!! I am back!^^

HI!!This is my first blog since trials..(almost ended but i am
enjoying myself anyway..i m left with accounts,est and math..which..i am quite
lazy to do rite now..)TRIALS! though it was almost over, i couldnt gain any
satisfaction..the papers were tough for me..i assume i lack of
studying..Well..so decided to do a whole new change to my blog to...well...i hav
no idea why..(I END up get nag n nag by my brother..the whole night..he kept
sighing and i continue with my evil laughs)..GIVE and TAKE see?*smirks*one more
thing, i didnt noe human could sleep like me...like pigs..but its nice
until...............the receptionist in the office says "why do you look so
pale?"not only her, Samila too...she was bloody worried i will faint and i am
so not joking at her expression. OH YES! and on thursday, since we are like
freebirds,we actually too free that..we played hide and seek with a 5 year old
girl in the library?(fyi, its unoccupied k,v are not that,THAT open)you know, if
with other kids, i might not care that much(i bet i will..) but its DAMIA! I
REPEAT..DAMIA!SHE is so darn cute that no one,i repeat NO ONE could resist and i mean it.she brought her
coloring book and oh god..did i mention that me n farhana help her colour in
shades and nice?i bet her mum gonna smack us one day for 'helping her' finish
the book.and no matter whr she go, everyone will surround her..(i notice this
when i sat quietly at the corner and watch her).nex time i will show a picture
of her n i m sure you guys couldnt resist too.... but..samila scared her
well..actually, i have no idea y is she scared of her...seriously..haha..she
almost sobbed..i was freaking scared her mum will come n see tis
incident..hahahaha

Friday~my convo wif samila in the restaurant

Me~lets do a study plan for next week


samila~okay


Me~lets start on monday..


Samila~WHat?then what am i gonna do tomorrow?(P/s, she is darn rajin..unlike me..)


Me~please...okok...sunday


samila~nope..saturday


me..~aiya...okok


Samila~start at...7am...


Me~ WHAT?!!??


Samila~okay,9 am then


Me.~haih..ok


Samila~at first i wanna say at 4 am...luckily i din..if not you will faint.


ME~ absolutely true..indeed





(WHY am i so lazy??n now i am onlining like day and night...gosh..)


Okay..picture update..











~So cute la the kid...~







~Random pic before exam..now..there is no need~



~Feel like sleeping~

Thats all..tata^^