• Ya, i miss you so much dearie..today's date
  26th October 2009 I will remember forever o...hope you will remember me after i
  leave school in a month time...because i will...^^ take care yourself, i will
  come to visit frm time to time....maybe that time if your mum let, i mite bring
  you around...or come to my hse fr a visit...thanks lots....okay, gotta go, i
  need to study...^^
  
  
  ~miss ya~

TODAY

This post was a draft few weeks ago~

Today, I remembered the moment where I let go of you. I told myself that I will never blog about you anymore in the future for its not worth it as in the past, the memory of how you pierce my heart and shatter it into pieces, so fine that I cant even see the pieces myself. Now, just so you know, I did not blog with pain like I used to.. I blog with freedom that I longed for all these while when I was suffering, now I can get the freedom that I yearned, Thanks to god, family and closest frens, even those i'd never think of, came walking into mylife like they noe me for a long time, and thanks guys, I knew that god send you all to me....i Know. Now, as I walk around in my hse, i saw things that you gave to me, the happiest things and the most painful things, lying around. I saw things I'd never open, put sum courage, open them.look at them, and smile.I m glad this is over. I do. as courageous as i am, I had no time to pack the stuff and keep it in the closet. maybe aftr schools over, I will get sum time, to fade my hurtful past.from sight of others and myself..for once and for all.....


i am free

To my friend in a private blog whom I really cared~title: You are not alone
msg~ I truly Hope you will read this so you know i m always here for you no matter what happens, even if the world turn their backs on you. you can call me anytym you want.

I truly appreciate your presence in my life. Id never thought i would meet you this year n be friends tru msn. Although we r not close in reality life, but here I hope you know I cared lots bout you. I know your pain as how you have understnd mine. I have been irrational like you..but i thought of my responsibility. I saved myself from seeing any drip of red droplets because I think far and i thought of my reponsibility to myself, family and the world. Never let that happen to you. Never! Its not worth it. I want you in my life as my friend. Dont do that. I dont want to lose you. Those who make you cry doesn't deserve your tears, those who deserve your tears wont make you cry. You have gotta let go of your undissolved past. Let it flow away with your tears.listen, if you cant make him happy, someone else can, and when he is happy, you should be happy. And when he is now happy, you gotta move on, because life is all about moving on for your dreams. Never let that stop you. This is barely the beginning of your life. theres more for you to discover. if you r sad once in a while, its okay. pour it out to a person, maybe me if u feel like it. I hav no idea whtr i deserve to be your friend or not but i m always here for you. I f not to a person, maybe to an object. diary, blog, journal or piano if you play one. So what if your tears pour down on the keys and wet the white, satin felt keys..so what if your tears wet ta piano n drip off....believe it or not, it will make you feel better, because its tears, not red droplets on keys. never do that k..promise me..my friend...

~here for you~

Equatorial hotel ~2nd part...^^~

Continuation of graduation party.....^^

~me n shantini..p/s ignore my hair ~
~me n keerthana p/s ignore my hair~

~yo chocolate fountain~

~me n food...hahahaha p/s ignore my hair..i tied it up in rush..ya plus sweat~

~First dish..was hungry..nice dishes..haha~

~second dish..got salmon, squid, tuna,lasagna..superb food~

~all the cakes.. cheese cake, tiramisu,swiss roll, pudding,layered,chocolate,fruit..etc~

Eating..p/s ignore hair

~look at the size...hahaha~

alrite,till here first..mite grab more pics soon^^

P/s~ SORRY DEAR THAT I DID NOT HAVE THE CHANCE TO TAKE A PIC WITH YOU TODAY, was really busy that i missed your presence...I M SORRY..WE WILL TRY SUM OTR TYM,DUN WORRY...love ya always^^

~always~

graduation Day!!

GRADUATION DAY IN SCHOOL AND EQUATORIAL HI TEA(ya right..its deserved to be called a super heavy brunch)

FIRST PART~ Graduation Ceremony in school

After a day of seriously waited day, THE GRADZ day, i end up with ya, swollen toes but most of all......MY TEACHERS AND frenz!!!!! i was so dizzy on thinking wht to wear but end up wearing my mums baju kurung which ya,, i admt..shes got bttr taste den me humai...n changed to a dress ltr because i was freaking sweating! in the morning, took loads of pic in the toilet and pavillion..so excited and panic that i forget to shake pn norlia's hand haha...sorry...and to aishah a.k.a reyoko..mum...sorry that if i was like so panic on stage that i almost froze. and thank god i did not trip..haha..if not it wud be rather embarassing..okay,back to my day..firstly,i walk with TRACY..(though i wore heels, she is still taller than me...and thats the first thing she told me in the morning..=.=)niway, you go girl! to register n get our robes..THANKS TO INTI COLLEGE, we got beautiful GRADUATION coat....(not green,ITS blck,gosh remind me of the piano) den, i took a big round to the toilet after pujuking tracy to come along bcoz she insist to sit and get sum wind..i was like..toilet also can...so i managed after all..^^.n we camwhore like wht...(THOUGH tracy doesnt want...but i made her...THANKS TRACY>>>love ya) i took loads wif KEERTHANA and SHANTiNI(you guys look super pretty...seriously i m honest...) with diviya n janani too^^....many more....hehe...thanks for agreeing to take pichas wif me guys...so aftr kena rushed...i faster walk to the pv..n there is the graduation ceramah n ceremony..theres ta pics..^^then took loads of pic with my dearest teachers n frens...(SOrry fr those hu x sempat....nex tym sure gt chance...gugugu*.* wei hong..i m not a pigeon k ....o.O)then, after i was freakin sweating, i rushed to the toilet to change my clothes...(firstly, bcoz i was wet wif sweat, 2nd, wanna make variety pics ^^..ltr i tell you bout the cinderella issue..if i sempat ...) then, v bertolak to the hotel, i was glad bcoz my feet showing the signs of ....-pain-so i was excited to throw myslf into the food...so much variety!!!!!!!i m not joking...i went few rounds....till in the end..i felt like so bloated n i swallowed a mug of dark coffee...(i added a sachet of EQUAL -sweetener kononya wanna go healthy-but i was lyk drinking herbs...it was bitter n i concluded i liked nescaFE better..-ya ya..i seldom drink...caffeine is a stimulant..not gud for health...)so added some brown sugar n finally, milk...thn its super fragant tat i took all n samila was lyk WAt ta face at me. Samila....dun put too much sugar...i think u stop puting lo....Me~put sum sugar n milk..her~ok..watm still bitter..me~wat?? how many bekas u wan?? her~ its bitter...me~i show the wat ta face....hahahahahahaha...ok....den aftr que-ing n get food MANY TYMS...MANY MANY tyms....v go camwhore!!!see this

~This is me n farhana..(one of my bestest dearest..ignore the fact she is real seng*t)~

~me and frens n teachers..love all of you~

~najihah, me, samila,pn yusnaini,baby,humai,umai~

~pn rohana n us~

~bee li n I~

~Navee givin speech..ya ya i noe..cant see her face...sorry..o.O

~5 BERLIANS~

~beauty peagant~

~in toilet..look at Loh Ling's hand..hahaha~

~Reyoko n Me~

~Pn hasni n I~

~Yaya...our class again...I LOVE YOU GUYS ^^~

~Nazeerah, me n baby~

~wow..i look weird~

me, navee n mei theng..p/s got light effect..hahaha..

~Kalai n I..lalala~

~me n humai~

~YEAH N SUSU~

Is this the price?

To you

Is this the price,
I shall have to pay,
For lending your sight,
Of me I would say?

Is this the price,
I have to bear,
For you are my friend,
No matter what you do till the end?

Is this the price,
I have to face,
From now and for on,
Thats all i could say?

Is this the price,
Though I stand by you,
for now and for ever,
no matter what happens,
Though deep i felt a crust of stabbing pain,
But it seems too dull,
I am nothing to you at all.


Sorry

Sorry for the lack of faith,
sorry for the lack of my grace,
Sorry for the lack of remembrance,
Sorry for my less.

HOME DECO EXPO





Look clearly....

so unique..price also unique..

beautiful

i went to exhibition..for home deco...had lotsa walk n tonnes pic...but..i m gonna put up wat i felt interesting only kie....ntg to do bout me..paiseh ...i

went n the shop and take..thn luckily ta shopkeeper din shout or throw boxes at me...coz din ask them first..den so selamba i walk out...yala...i memang 'cha thaw' in hokkien means straight like the log...wat to do..i cant change^^

To my beloved Weinbach in the corner

you are gone....gone from my life...i want to track you but i couldnt...i miss the time we've spent together, how i lay my fingers on you...how you seem to understand me no matter i was sad, broken,exited r very happy...you seemed to know how to console me each time...no matter with laughters..or my tears spilling over on you...after i spent my time most of the days in the weeks evening with you...aftr that..i feel better...regain my sanity...I dont care people say you are old..you are spoilt or you are out of tune.....For me...you are the best..you are the one for me...i love you...i love your keys...i love the soft velvet feeling brushes my hand my when i play you...although many vandalism has been done...you are perfect in my eyes as new...now that you are gone forever replaced by a new one, a beautiful black yamaha

piano, has a shiny key cover and great pedals, not to mention the golden partial cotton, polystr and velvet cloth on you..and a lock. I can no longer sew some piece of my song into the school...no more..Though with this, i remember YOU , an original wood brown Weinbach, loosened pedal, and labeled white keys with marker pen...and a spoilt lock. Spoilt lock..the reason you brought you to me....dont worry..i will always remember your own classy beauty..the comfort you bring me....the memory you carve in my soul..i will always remember.....