Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis.
It was very fun. Really. I got loads of experience to be independent. wake up early to wash clothes, volleyball in dusk..study...workload. I met many people from many backgrounds..people whom touched my heart, people whom I really cared.Now all I can do is travel this journey of mine to the best it can go. Wait for me. I m trying to let go, if it comes bck to me, we're meant to be. If it doesn't, it was never mine. Now on a 3days break. will go bck. on sunday..take a truckload of pics..will upload soon..wait fr me ya!!thts all fr now...take care..^^
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
perlis
I M REALLY GOIN TO PERLIS!! Okay, chill, BUT HOW?? HAVENT PACK FINISH!! n dun feel like packing..den comes in the sore throat, flu..gudness..how now how now?? *smacks*
bye Fb, bye my baby bloggie, bye room, bye onlining, bye every1, bye XY. .byebye
bye Fb, bye my baby bloggie, bye room, bye onlining, bye every1, bye XY. .byebye
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Time
The history of mine has made me believe that time will cure everything. It will. I truly believe if i withstand more pain, put up a thicker wall n bear with it, I believe, time will help me.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
loser
Todays post it for myself.
Im a loser.such a jerk. seriously, no doubt.
I m such a loser that I don't care for others feelings isnt it?
Or i cared too much of the feelings of others, which fires back,as if i'd never cared before? I hurt people around me, people close to me.
Always.
I m sorry, but i couldnt turn back time.
if I could, i might just shut myself out from everyone.
Better for them, better for me. I wont ever get the chance to hurt any1.
they would be vry happy.
This change, maybe in coll life?
Just don't care. Cold, like whom i was before.
until i dunno what-in- the- world that change me. At least i wont hurt anyone by then. I didnt. Even if i did, i wont feel a thing.
Dont know since when tht change n i have feelings.
afterall.
And that hurts me more than ever.
I felt more pain than bfr. It really suffers. Now? as if i have ntg to do?
I m hurting ppl around me. I felt so bad. I m sorry. Truly. I never meant fr any ths to happen . i loser.
Im a loser.such a jerk. seriously, no doubt.
I m such a loser that I don't care for others feelings isnt it?
Or i cared too much of the feelings of others, which fires back,as if i'd never cared before? I hurt people around me, people close to me.
Always.
I m sorry, but i couldnt turn back time.
if I could, i might just shut myself out from everyone.
Better for them, better for me. I wont ever get the chance to hurt any1.
they would be vry happy.
This change, maybe in coll life?
Just don't care. Cold, like whom i was before.
until i dunno what-in- the- world that change me. At least i wont hurt anyone by then. I didnt. Even if i did, i wont feel a thing.
Dont know since when tht change n i have feelings.
afterall.
And that hurts me more than ever.
I felt more pain than bfr. It really suffers. Now? as if i have ntg to do?
I m hurting ppl around me. I felt so bad. I m sorry. Truly. I never meant fr any ths to happen . i loser.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
self sacrifice
When i look back, I have went tru this before. Yes, indeed, i have. I wondered, will the reason of failure in relationship(general) is my fault? I thought it was always my fault. I thought it always because i m selfish. but when i think again, is it because i m self sacrificial ?for everyones benefit that i m doin this, but i caused hurt in me. i dont care. this is what it shud be.
My bloggie.
Dearest, my bloggie.
Todays post in to...
yes, the one and only bloggie. My bloggie.
Ignore the fact that i got another bloggie in wordpress k, or for transparentdress
Okay, I realised this like moments ago. My bloggie is very loyal indeed.
She is always there for me no matter what happens to me, my bloggie will always be there for me even if I felt like crying or screaming or punching the wall or simply for a compliment like now.
I realised i can tell what i feel here, even the things i could not tell others by word of mouth. Typing n talking is 2 different things k.
I had no idea why but i kept knowing if i got any prob at all, my blog will be there.
I seriously had no idea why. Seriously.
What i couldnt directly tell others, i tell here.
It suffice to let out any feel at all, although bloggie wun reply. It is enuf. I m too lazy to write in a diary, so this is fine with me.
I LOVE YOU MY BLOGGIE!
yes, the one and only bloggie. My bloggie.
Ignore the fact that i got another bloggie in wordpress k, or for transparentdress
Okay, I realised this like moments ago. My bloggie is very loyal indeed.
She is always there for me no matter what happens to me, my bloggie will always be there for me even if I felt like crying or screaming or punching the wall or simply for a compliment like now.
I realised i can tell what i feel here, even the things i could not tell others by word of mouth. Typing n talking is 2 different things k.
I had no idea why but i kept knowing if i got any prob at all, my blog will be there.
I seriously had no idea why. Seriously.
What i couldnt directly tell others, i tell here.
It suffice to let out any feel at all, although bloggie wun reply. It is enuf. I m too lazy to write in a diary, so this is fine with me.
I LOVE YOU MY BLOGGIE!
Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi
I heard this in sumwhr n i instantly like it so much!!! Very nice...u shud go hear..^^
Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi
Lei le Zhao guan li nu li qing xing zhe Ye zhao guan li xiang ni le
Hao pa yi fang xin shui le Xin tiao zai meng zhong bu ting hua de Jiu ting zhi le
Ting zhe Hu xi xiang lang chao pai dong zhe Yue mei li yue rang wo tan te
Wo hai neng zhen xi shen me Ru guo wo lian zi ji de mai bo Dou nan zhang wo
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
Kuai le Shen me shi hou hui jie su ne Na yi ke shi zui hou yi ke
Xiang ba ni jing jing bao zhe Ke zhi ni shi wo sheng ming zhong de Zui she bu de
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zui pa wo tai be zheng qi
Wan gu de lai zai kong qi Ba zhan ni xin li Mei yi cun feng xi
Lian lei yi ran ai wo de ni Tong ku cheng shou shi qu
Zhe yang bu gong ping Qing ni jin li Ba wo wang ji
Translation
When I'm tired I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping My ice-cold body No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound] Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness When will it end? When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping, my ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound], let him stay accompany you, I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair Please try your best To forget me
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Saturday, May 29, 2010
KMP
Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis.
It was very fun. Really. I got loads of experience to be independent. wake up early to wash clothes, volleyball in dusk..study...workload. I met many people from many backgrounds..people whom touched my heart, people whom I really cared.Now all I can do is travel this journey of mine to the best it can go. Wait for me. I m trying to let go, if it comes bck to me, we're meant to be. If it doesn't, it was never mine. Now on a 3days break. will go bck. on sunday..take a truckload of pics..will upload soon..wait fr me ya!!thts all fr now...take care..^^
It was very fun. Really. I got loads of experience to be independent. wake up early to wash clothes, volleyball in dusk..study...workload. I met many people from many backgrounds..people whom touched my heart, people whom I really cared.Now all I can do is travel this journey of mine to the best it can go. Wait for me. I m trying to let go, if it comes bck to me, we're meant to be. If it doesn't, it was never mine. Now on a 3days break. will go bck. on sunday..take a truckload of pics..will upload soon..wait fr me ya!!thts all fr now...take care..^^
Friday, May 7, 2010
perlis
I M REALLY GOIN TO PERLIS!! Okay, chill, BUT HOW?? HAVENT PACK FINISH!! n dun feel like packing..den comes in the sore throat, flu..gudness..how now how now?? *smacks*
bye Fb, bye my baby bloggie, bye room, bye onlining, bye every1, bye XY. .byebye
bye Fb, bye my baby bloggie, bye room, bye onlining, bye every1, bye XY. .byebye
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Time
The history of mine has made me believe that time will cure everything. It will. I truly believe if i withstand more pain, put up a thicker wall n bear with it, I believe, time will help me.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
loser
Todays post it for myself.
Im a loser.such a jerk. seriously, no doubt.
I m such a loser that I don't care for others feelings isnt it?
Or i cared too much of the feelings of others, which fires back,as if i'd never cared before? I hurt people around me, people close to me.
Always.
I m sorry, but i couldnt turn back time.
if I could, i might just shut myself out from everyone.
Better for them, better for me. I wont ever get the chance to hurt any1.
they would be vry happy.
This change, maybe in coll life?
Just don't care. Cold, like whom i was before.
until i dunno what-in- the- world that change me. At least i wont hurt anyone by then. I didnt. Even if i did, i wont feel a thing.
Dont know since when tht change n i have feelings.
afterall.
And that hurts me more than ever.
I felt more pain than bfr. It really suffers. Now? as if i have ntg to do?
I m hurting ppl around me. I felt so bad. I m sorry. Truly. I never meant fr any ths to happen . i loser.
Im a loser.such a jerk. seriously, no doubt.
I m such a loser that I don't care for others feelings isnt it?
Or i cared too much of the feelings of others, which fires back,as if i'd never cared before? I hurt people around me, people close to me.
Always.
I m sorry, but i couldnt turn back time.
if I could, i might just shut myself out from everyone.
Better for them, better for me. I wont ever get the chance to hurt any1.
they would be vry happy.
This change, maybe in coll life?
Just don't care. Cold, like whom i was before.
until i dunno what-in- the- world that change me. At least i wont hurt anyone by then. I didnt. Even if i did, i wont feel a thing.
Dont know since when tht change n i have feelings.
afterall.
And that hurts me more than ever.
I felt more pain than bfr. It really suffers. Now? as if i have ntg to do?
I m hurting ppl around me. I felt so bad. I m sorry. Truly. I never meant fr any ths to happen . i loser.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
self sacrifice
When i look back, I have went tru this before. Yes, indeed, i have. I wondered, will the reason of failure in relationship(general) is my fault? I thought it was always my fault. I thought it always because i m selfish. but when i think again, is it because i m self sacrificial ?for everyones benefit that i m doin this, but i caused hurt in me. i dont care. this is what it shud be.
My bloggie.
Dearest, my bloggie.
Todays post in to...
yes, the one and only bloggie. My bloggie.
Ignore the fact that i got another bloggie in wordpress k, or for transparentdress
Okay, I realised this like moments ago. My bloggie is very loyal indeed.
She is always there for me no matter what happens to me, my bloggie will always be there for me even if I felt like crying or screaming or punching the wall or simply for a compliment like now.
I realised i can tell what i feel here, even the things i could not tell others by word of mouth. Typing n talking is 2 different things k.
I had no idea why but i kept knowing if i got any prob at all, my blog will be there.
I seriously had no idea why. Seriously.
What i couldnt directly tell others, i tell here.
It suffice to let out any feel at all, although bloggie wun reply. It is enuf. I m too lazy to write in a diary, so this is fine with me.
I LOVE YOU MY BLOGGIE!
yes, the one and only bloggie. My bloggie.
Ignore the fact that i got another bloggie in wordpress k, or for transparentdress
Okay, I realised this like moments ago. My bloggie is very loyal indeed.
She is always there for me no matter what happens to me, my bloggie will always be there for me even if I felt like crying or screaming or punching the wall or simply for a compliment like now.
I realised i can tell what i feel here, even the things i could not tell others by word of mouth. Typing n talking is 2 different things k.
I had no idea why but i kept knowing if i got any prob at all, my blog will be there.
I seriously had no idea why. Seriously.
What i couldnt directly tell others, i tell here.
It suffice to let out any feel at all, although bloggie wun reply. It is enuf. I m too lazy to write in a diary, so this is fine with me.
I LOVE YOU MY BLOGGIE!
Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi
I heard this in sumwhr n i instantly like it so much!!! Very nice...u shud go hear..^^
Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi
Lei le Zhao guan li nu li qing xing zhe Ye zhao guan li xiang ni le
Hao pa yi fang xin shui le Xin tiao zai meng zhong bu ting hua de Jiu ting zhi le
Ting zhe Hu xi xiang lang chao pai dong zhe Yue mei li yue rang wo tan te
Wo hai neng zhen xi shen me Ru guo wo lian zi ji de mai bo Dou nan zhang wo
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
Kuai le Shen me shi hou hui jie su ne Na yi ke shi zui hou yi ke
Xiang ba ni jing jing bao zhe Ke zhi ni shi wo sheng ming zhong de Zui she bu de
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Tui chu le zhe chang sheng ming
Liu xia ni cuo e ku qi Wo bing leng shen ti Yong bao bu liao ni
Xiang dao wo rang shen ai de ni Ren hai gu du lv xing
Wo hui hen zi ji Ru ci hen xin
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zhong yu mei na me xing yun
Mei ji hui bai zhe tou fa Pan shan qian zhe ni Kan wan xia luo jin
Man chang shi guang Zong you yi tian Ni hui shang xin quan yu
Ruo you ren ke yi Rang ta pei ni Wo bu guai ni
Ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi Zui pa wo tai be zheng qi
Wan gu de lai zai kong qi Ba zhan ni xin li Mei yi cun feng xi
Lian lei yi ran ai wo de ni Tong ku cheng shou shi qu
Zhe yang bu gong ping Qing ni jin li Ba wo wang ji
Translation
When I'm tired I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping My ice-cold body No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound] Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness When will it end? When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping, my ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound], let him stay accompany you, I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair Please try your best To forget me
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