its been a decade isnt it.
i was supposed to write on usmkk but life is hectic...cudnt squeze in time but i wil! soon after i settle down...
today,that wasnt the point. I was going to nag on some unimportant vein crap-prep-talk like the one u used to hear at highschool. yes. you.are.gonna.hear.it.here.
i had no one to express my thoughts here. i feel so alone. so lonely. i don't know who knew me already. what it felt like...feeling alone in a crowded hall?
Watching time pass me by,fades away in the silent night...it never seemed the same. it was so hurtful,it numbed me. i dont care who you are, bring me to a bar, i need my alcohol shots. caffein seemed to add the pain. Its so amazing how few innocent words stab me at the core. And yes,reality check. I never knew reality was so...reality.
Wake up Fion, have you forgotten your past which drag you down few years ago? how you built a wall around you?Have you forgotten the wall you tear down for him? how you refuse to let yourself love him more everyday?
This isnt a fairytale. I m not a princess. . wake up.this is too good to be true. i am just another ordinary girl in a small town. what can i expect?
i let down my guard. i open up my world for you. i make some space to fit you in. I am not another clueless teen whom says i love you every 5 seconds and i do belive they mean it. for a while. You may think i am a 15 year old,whom can't accept rejections and life philosophy. think again. i let you in my world. i know what to expect but never knew,hearing it from you,hurts me even deeper. will you ever give up on me?what u meant when you say u may give up if situation force you. sure. give up whenevr u want,just give me a month notice . sure,i am a robot. pull out the plug. settle case. you don't want me to stuck in my romance world, have you ever see my love more than romance?have you felt how much i care?have you seen how far i would go? have you seen how much i can give up for you while maintaining my rationality but not because of romance and a fairytale story?
maybe i have so much weakness.i am not perfect. i wasnt a clingy person. i just do so to have the sense of belonging. but since this is the way you take it, i can deal it. just that,i don't know where to hold on anymore. can i hold on you whom may giv up on me?what if u giv up not now,but when we have our family?will you tell me that you cant take in anymore 10 yrs frm now?will you stel me to stop living in my fairytale?congrats. you have succeed in making me realise i m not a princess. i m not living in a fairytale.
Friday, September 30, 2011
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Friday, September 30, 2011
Dusty
its been a decade isnt it.
i was supposed to write on usmkk but life is hectic...cudnt squeze in time but i wil! soon after i settle down...
today,that wasnt the point. I was going to nag on some unimportant vein crap-prep-talk like the one u used to hear at highschool. yes. you.are.gonna.hear.it.here.
i had no one to express my thoughts here. i feel so alone. so lonely. i don't know who knew me already. what it felt like...feeling alone in a crowded hall?
Watching time pass me by,fades away in the silent night...it never seemed the same. it was so hurtful,it numbed me. i dont care who you are, bring me to a bar, i need my alcohol shots. caffein seemed to add the pain. Its so amazing how few innocent words stab me at the core. And yes,reality check. I never knew reality was so...reality.
Wake up Fion, have you forgotten your past which drag you down few years ago? how you built a wall around you?Have you forgotten the wall you tear down for him? how you refuse to let yourself love him more everyday?
This isnt a fairytale. I m not a princess. . wake up.this is too good to be true. i am just another ordinary girl in a small town. what can i expect?
i let down my guard. i open up my world for you. i make some space to fit you in. I am not another clueless teen whom says i love you every 5 seconds and i do belive they mean it. for a while. You may think i am a 15 year old,whom can't accept rejections and life philosophy. think again. i let you in my world. i know what to expect but never knew,hearing it from you,hurts me even deeper. will you ever give up on me?what u meant when you say u may give up if situation force you. sure. give up whenevr u want,just give me a month notice . sure,i am a robot. pull out the plug. settle case. you don't want me to stuck in my romance world, have you ever see my love more than romance?have you felt how much i care?have you seen how far i would go? have you seen how much i can give up for you while maintaining my rationality but not because of romance and a fairytale story?
maybe i have so much weakness.i am not perfect. i wasnt a clingy person. i just do so to have the sense of belonging. but since this is the way you take it, i can deal it. just that,i don't know where to hold on anymore. can i hold on you whom may giv up on me?what if u giv up not now,but when we have our family?will you tell me that you cant take in anymore 10 yrs frm now?will you stel me to stop living in my fairytale?congrats. you have succeed in making me realise i m not a princess. i m not living in a fairytale.
i was supposed to write on usmkk but life is hectic...cudnt squeze in time but i wil! soon after i settle down...
today,that wasnt the point. I was going to nag on some unimportant vein crap-prep-talk like the one u used to hear at highschool. yes. you.are.gonna.hear.it.here.
i had no one to express my thoughts here. i feel so alone. so lonely. i don't know who knew me already. what it felt like...feeling alone in a crowded hall?
Watching time pass me by,fades away in the silent night...it never seemed the same. it was so hurtful,it numbed me. i dont care who you are, bring me to a bar, i need my alcohol shots. caffein seemed to add the pain. Its so amazing how few innocent words stab me at the core. And yes,reality check. I never knew reality was so...reality.
Wake up Fion, have you forgotten your past which drag you down few years ago? how you built a wall around you?Have you forgotten the wall you tear down for him? how you refuse to let yourself love him more everyday?
This isnt a fairytale. I m not a princess. . wake up.this is too good to be true. i am just another ordinary girl in a small town. what can i expect?
i let down my guard. i open up my world for you. i make some space to fit you in. I am not another clueless teen whom says i love you every 5 seconds and i do belive they mean it. for a while. You may think i am a 15 year old,whom can't accept rejections and life philosophy. think again. i let you in my world. i know what to expect but never knew,hearing it from you,hurts me even deeper. will you ever give up on me?what u meant when you say u may give up if situation force you. sure. give up whenevr u want,just give me a month notice . sure,i am a robot. pull out the plug. settle case. you don't want me to stuck in my romance world, have you ever see my love more than romance?have you felt how much i care?have you seen how far i would go? have you seen how much i can give up for you while maintaining my rationality but not because of romance and a fairytale story?
maybe i have so much weakness.i am not perfect. i wasnt a clingy person. i just do so to have the sense of belonging. but since this is the way you take it, i can deal it. just that,i don't know where to hold on anymore. can i hold on you whom may giv up on me?what if u giv up not now,but when we have our family?will you tell me that you cant take in anymore 10 yrs frm now?will you stel me to stop living in my fairytale?congrats. you have succeed in making me realise i m not a princess. i m not living in a fairytale.
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