* Drags blistered feet to laptop and turn it on just for the sake so i dont forget today...*
#A post drafted few months ago#
It was a Tzu Chi event in Kota Baru held somewhere around muzium kesenian .
They are on a country tour to raise money to build school in Penang.
I was incharged of the food section and they gave me a set of head scarf and apron plus mask. *excites* put it on an almost everyone called me a canteen auntie...HAHAHA *still excites* Serve food and wash dishes most of the time...
When I served food for the meals, most of the times where i cant speak anything but just to smile and move to the next person. However, remember?
i was wearing a mask. I tried hard to smile beneath but i am just not too sure.
Can they really see my smile through my eyes?
Can people really do that?
I believe so. I smiled hard that my face was crooked from the cramps under it but yet, i smiled.
A thing i gotta ponder today,
The higher you are, the lower you should go.
I still remember when i was busy working at a bakery, mostly i mop floor, and handle the baked goods. Mom said do you have to? you are gonna be studying medicine and be a doctor real soon, just rest and take your time.
I didnt. I insist and went for the job and I am glad I can continue studying after that hard time.
That i have a choice to do what i want. I am glad i went there. I am glad even if i have to do various things i had never done before considering i was lucky enough to be born in a happy family. I wash the trays every morning, like a huge stack of it, clean the countertops, packing breads, bear with customer complains, learning to manage money and the machine, clean the floor, dirty myself and rush all the time, but it was worth it.
The people there are very nice, they care for me, they actually love me ^^ giving me free breads and stuff, treat me real nice...even tho i am a newcomer and doesnt know anything! They dont judge and very humble people. Unlike many that i had known in the past. The thought me how to be down to earth and definitely non judgemental even all they know about me is that i had just finished matrix thats all. When i was leaving and ordered an ice cream cake, she made it specially decorated just for me. I was truly touched. :')
A confession bringing the worse out of me:
In the event, i was treated as an equal but deep down inside i felt how it was like to be working for other classes of people. Its hard to say this, but I felt low. I felt i lost all my ego that time. i was being masked, nobody knows who I am (only friends would) .
By this, I can truly appreciate whom is a truely kind in nature or those who judge people on their status. When people know that you are a medical student, they treat you well, with respect and manners. When you are masked by merely a mask doing dishes for others by the tap, many will still respect and appreciate you there. but the ugly truth is, some will no longer see it that way. Some will treat you as you are not on equal, like someone lower. Probably its just me being sensitive.
I just hope everyone will treat others the same no matter weather they are in a coat or in an apron. This time I'd learnt to put all the ego away, treat is as something i gotta learn on human equality.
How i learn to treat everyone the same.
To not judge. A mentality not excluding myself gotta improve for the better in humanity.
All in all, the higher you get, the lower you should go.
If i realised i did not, i will start to pray and ask god to help find myself.
When i get there, i am truly grateful =)
We are all humans. And we will always have the same, equal rights.
Footnote: Sorry for any offences, they are not intentional.
Just purely an opinion and nobody is perfect including myself.
