lost

i..dont knw wht u r up to...felt so blur..doesnt matters..wht sppose 2 come will come n wht not sppose 2 will fade away..haih~felt useless...hmm..yestdy..went 2 music class...n dunno why...my piano songs all oso -d-e-t-a-c-h-e-d-wan...din kena scold oso gud d...haha...den my teachr suddenly saw my nail...omg...-not spose 2 keep long nails fr piano lessons..-..haha..no wndr it made a kind of clicking sounds..okay...hv ntg 2 do....now...haven even made app fr dentst. haih~!
okie lo...tata..^^

~Lost~

miserable

today is a really miserable day, well i never thought it would be in this hols..but out of no where there are emptiness challenging my sanity..how m i suppose 2 deal with that?for no reason..i felt alone...for no reason..i felt empty..why?felt somethng is missing right there in the core of my soul..now its just the matter of time before it tears my soul apart..then..?i shud kneel down a pick up the pieces?then what should i do with it?i am weird..out of no where...i felt miserable for everybit of my life.....now i can only hope things will work out for me...or else...


~Out of no where~

Looking back


Shall i count,
those time we're together,
or those when we're apart,
seeking no pain when it had just begun,
knowing no truth,
as it hurt so much.

The path,
that you put me through,
leaving me numb,
by my shadows,
when will it end,
i question myself,
till now,
i got nothing but dust.

I never think twice,
for what i've done,
but i never forget,
what misery made for me,
how it carves into my sanity,
Tearing my soul apart.



~The Silent Friendship~

twilight

Yesterday, i wanted 2 write a post..but i was engaged with breaking dawn..cant resist...thankfully, i m done now..bcoz since i took twilight frm my bro who dont bothr reading much..^^i m addicted..i dont noe y..bt the conclusion was i m addicted..till i m done with breaking dawn..i stuck with ta books fr a bout 1 week..ta first thng in the morning n the last thing before bed at nite..well the consequences..i hv panda eyes..haha..my mum was lyk...'will u ever stop..'..i was lyk..a while..haha..-ya right-ystdy, me n my frens-21 ppl plus my bro- went 2 watch twilight..it was nice bt reading is much more fun..coz thy kinda cut short ta story in the movie..well...i sat wif my bro-tats nt ta huge thng- n wif navee hu is obsesed wif her edward n kalai wif her carlisle...haha....thy completed ta dialogues..wow....tat is smthng..despite 'kekurangan tempat duduk..'haha..I dont noe y but i reli like EDWARD CULLEN!!!! He is so nice...n felt so happy fr dem in breaking dawn whr they live 2gthr fr eternity.....anyway..looking foward fr midnite sun...nw..haha...bt those hu did not read ta books i reli thnk tat ta book is reli nice...



~Me~

Hihi....yestdy tired...so din ryt blog....on friday...was a blast!!oh wait.....on thursday 1st...i went to yi ling hse n do suprise mini party fr yi may..-so-called-suprise-party-n i gav her a colour cube...frgot to print ta formula fr her...hahaha..n yi ling bought cake...wellli noe it was supposed to be Yi May's bufday but..................................................in the end..........................guess wat...me n yi ling eat ta most cakes!!.....wakakaka..tis is how it look lyk..... The cake yi ling bought fr yi may...

My colour cube...........^^

Yi May's wishes.......i guess wat is it??

Then..on friday...v ate pizza..me n yiling shared a set...very full....den v nid 2 go metro point..welll....i went thr 2 buy teachr present fr sum stuff...bt in the end...i end up shopping wif yi ling n kalai n navee n daya....who abandoned me n yl halfway....latr.....v went to ta bowling alley...but i m not playin...until...............kalai n navee bought fr me ta place!!bt i onli play a lil...ta rest...yeah n ta othr finish up fr me......at 5 i nid to go sch....but then.....................IT WAS RAINING CATS N DOGS!!!OMG...me n farhana bought umbrellas......n me, umai ,farhana a...n farhana hamid...-miss ya- go tru a verrry challenging n seram xperience....bt farhana -both- drive me n umai nutz!!wakakaka v laughed all ta way.....till v reached sch.....

Ta alley......

I lyk tis colour..^^

Me n Frens.....................

Donut freak...............-OURS NOT MINE ONLY!!^^-

wELL..tis view only can be seen in FRIM in Malaysia..n Papua New Guinea.......

~Continue nex tym...^^~

i m longing fr freedom...i m nuts..i really do...smtyms...it made me feel lyk betraying....but ta thng with me...i wudnt...i reli wan 2....hu cares? its me tat is nts...i dun reli get it...ta sense of caged....nw better den last tym....tis thnx 2 myself.....rebbelious huh~bt soon evry1 dun mind anymore...i dun mind anymr....tats how it goes....plz la...i m lyk 16~!so u wud say...big deal a?! i say nope...not big deal..tats y....i've been longing fr ta day fr me 2 be set free frm all tis...everything!!dun reli gt it...maybe i m ta moz obedient gal in ta world?!!ya ryt....save it fr myself...da mr u do tis...i felt...ta more truant i will end up in return...u adults wud say....foolish me....i will nt say anythng....ta mr i go against..ta mr u all worry less.....or.ta othr way round...dunno...ok...i admit...i m dumb..wateva..save it fr urself.....


~Ya rite..~

Je suis content!A vacances, je voudrais a dormir de soir a apres midi!et...je voudrais faire du gateux a ma maison, ma favouri!Je suis grosse, surtout je voudrais mange gateux beacoup!hmm.aujord hui, je voudrais acheter une lunnets..non!ne lunnets pas!-lens-Je parler peu francais....haha....alors....au bientot!



Bisous,
~Fion~

Yesterday, i wanna write ta blog but thn my bro sort of conquered ta pc..den i fel asleep...okok...yesterday was the craziest day of my life..i was like a mad human..at 10 am...me, navee, bee li,loh ling, rachael,alisia, n tashwinnie walked to prescott metro inn fr preparation..it was a long bt fun walk..haha..reach ody..v prepared ta pa system..ta cd's...-whoa...58 songs man!!...,ta gifts fr form 5...-i bought dem earrings..n plus pens fr ta ajks..-hope they will lyk it..hehe..wat i did?take pics of coz....i thnk i drive ta othr ajk nuts!!..haha..so this is wat i get yesterday...

This is the backdrop

ta tables before we humans threw a massive party..wakaka.... The gifts...me my frens wrapped..-except the pink boxes...-...

I sempat take pic summore...i noe..fat ody..^^

The food before v humans eat it..nono..specificly..our ''babies'' ate them...

Well....then its our form 4 turn to eat...thrs lots more..coz thy refill.....then..v took a lotttttt of food.....its so tempting...till i cannot see ta base of my plate........no place 2 put ta spoon n fork...wakaka..-now u understand y m i fat??-..

This is my food in detail.....gt squid..chicken...fried onions..prawn-its missing...haha..-fried rice...The food its very nice except ta fried onions...its oily...n oso ta chicken...i not very lyk it loh...ta rest is nice....n ta chocolate cake superrrrrrrrrr nice....i ate a whole lot of it too...wakaka...n ta cheesecake....not bad bt not enuf cheese...n gt fruit cake oso...very nice....later...i took many types of pudding....okie lo...later o...yi ling say wan 2 share ta bread pudding but then!!!!!SHE FINISH TA WHOLE PLATE BY HERSELF!!....sweat..din keep fr me.. i oso malas go take od....very busy, i nid 2 catat ta minit..wif loh ling...den run here n run there......my food i think kena abandoned 3 or 4 tyms before i manage to finish it...den go giv ta presents la....fuh~tired....i oso joined ta choral speaking last minute...few days back oni.. Kalai conduct wan..hehe...very funny...

This is our ''babies'' singing..so cutee.......^^

I m helping to gv ta presents....to pn nirmala to othrs.....haha..

Our choral speaking...i nid to persuade Kalai not to pt me in ta front row...haha....

me my my frens tengah gila tat tym..siniging graduation n kenangan terindah...me finish gila ody...wakaka..n tis is oni half ta line..ta othr half tak muat...haha...Form 5 singing on the stage......so sporting...i will miss u guys....u all r reli nice...gud luck fr spm.....^^

Cheers!!

Me n Loh Ling...^^??

Navee, Me n Bee Li......haha..

Evry1 eating....me oni posing....Bee Li...eat slowly...shantini..annoyed wif her tie...haha...Loh Ling...patience is ta best policy....navee...concentration...!!

Our 'family' picture........frenz forever....luv u guys.....^^....

Kemas....after v finish rocking ta floor....haha.....

After ta noon session went back....v open ta dance floor......n off ta light!!let me confirm smthg....v r all girls....convent ma.....v went up ta stage n dance like nobody business...i oso kena pull up wan by navee......luckily, ta stage did not break...it shook...haha...i did smthg i wun do wan....crazy.....v reli had fun....tis majlis was suppose 2 be fr ta form 5...bt instead...v form 4....r ta noisiest...especially my table.....wif ta kp, pkp, s/u, p. s/u n penyelaras tugas thr....wah!ta table is plg kecoh....wan....cannot shut our mouths....navee n bee li wud be nagging on each othr ta whole tym...me n loh ling will talk bout reports...den me n yi ling will go take more food n pics....memang...kecoh...den wen sing song....wah...perasan sendiri...wakaka....den go sing at ta mikrofon(not me...^^)...lyk karaoke ody...until thy kemas od oso still singing n dancing.....i tell u ar....ta floor oso shook....until outside ta room oso can hear ta music....Okie....tats all...hope evry1 enjoyed the jamuan tat v reli worked hard fr..althgh its with our exams......thanks fr the co-orperation ya....muakss.....

~Fion~

ToRtUrE..

Hi...hmm..i thought i m ta only 1 tat couldnt let you go..when thrs othrs...i nid not wori tat much anymr..at leasd u've gt company...i cant find y i muz bother u though...maybe...we're frens?yup...its true...now..every1 is asleep..oni me awake...not yet sleepy..shud be studying pjk?!!(sweat..)light music on my background...wanna turn it off bt kinda lonely..i was playing my bro's guitar..on 'hero' bt my bro kept on nagging...bcoz..i din play it ta ryt way(it was obvious...hu play guitar on only a few strings with a wide range of frets....(rathr funny..)...n insisted i play Qing Tian by Jay Chou...oh dear..i did not!!)...today was a busy day..really..i was walking in ta whole sch whole day!nid to plan my ert jamuan...it gets bttr wif ta help of yi ling(hav tat patience..sze min..bought ta gifts...not 2 mention sook june...collect ta money..)it was really tough planning sumthng torture..if it dun turn well 2molo...i m so gonna......frgt it...den i hav 1 more ajk report to do..n agm stuff n ta gifts....burdening.....bt no choice.....hav 2 go on.....2molo gt ta majlis...hav 2 bsy again...Let me wish Loh Ling...HaPpY BuFdAy!! MaY Ur DrEaMs CoMe TrUe........


~I HaVe To Go On..~

Forced....

~UKM....in the morning...nice place..~

Hi...so long din post blog ody....now holz lo.....actually i got paper summr....but i dun reli care anymore...fr now...i thnk my nerves will greet me at sunday?den i will start throwing up in ta morning-including the ice lemon tea i drank at nyt, nothng else-...i noe i m growing damn fat...nid to eat to keep me awake at nyt..i will make sure i loose ta weight aftr xams...nex nex week..got acc 1,math 1, phy 1, pjk, sivik n french!!i muz be nuts..i m so gonna fail my french...wakaka...but dun care..n u noe wat...i discovered i m not only nuts but crazy.....during xams....i will talk to myself during ta papers...'umm, i dun think so........', 'yup...it is ta answer' or 'nolah!tis is crap...got aeroplanes a last tym?!!'....there...got my point?i thnk i make ta biggest noise in class....i talk to myself without me realising....my frens gonna thnk i m mad....its ok...i will cure myself soon.......fuh~now i m into sleeping moz of ta tym.....such xam depression will eat me up....such pain, anger , frustration!had nowhere to go xcept eating my heart out....i had o think...tis has been planned...i juz hav to work hard...-i lost so much marks in add math...-i studied so hard but i couldnt gt sumthng equal...but....its gud in a way...I WOULD NOT REPEAT TIS STUPID THING IN MY NEX EXAM!! ta frustration is unexplainable n unbeatable......difficult to be cured....but i m forced to xcept ta reality fact.....forced.......every success has its price...i gotta pay...with wat...wif tym,hardwork,frustration,falls n depression....i assume it gotta build up sumday.....althgh it means i gotta add eye bags n drink more tea...-i dun take coffee..-....tis am.....went 2 buy a whole truck of brooch fr teachers...-dun tell them ya..-..n keep it in a mini lovely box-for ta jamuan-now had 2 crack my head fr ert jamuan n gift fr form 5......omg.....nvm.....4get it....keke....ok...gotta go...tata....

juz from...

~Liking the bed a lot~