YAYA>>>
no dreading post... okok...so today went for an interview...please, dun wanna mention it..haha...so alrite, then my mum n i went shoping...end up only me bought clothes n reali spoonfed myself sum foodstuff... bought sum shorts n oso long sleeved tee...i wanted to grab sum jeans but not reli suitable tho..... got discount!so saved money...hahaha for CNY...cumin up soon...i hav collected clothes already since last yr but not enuf o...shoes buy od...white sandles..haha...even if i include ...hmm... think gotta do more shoppin!

Dilemma

I really very sad, but 1 thing i've been told i m good in is hiding my feelings really far. Do you have to say that? All the while oso the same, really dilemma. I m so screeching with pain inside but u never understand. This type of thing really dont work on me. Trust me, no matter how hurt i m, i m not affected then. Please, tho i didnt show, doesnt mean i dont care.

~Care~

mixed feelings

SOmetimes, well, most of the time, I like to keep things that well, i feel its unecessary to tell. I am very selfish now i can tell, that i did not think of someone elses feeling, but i just doesnt like to explain so much. Whatever i m doin, i have planned it already, i know what i am doing. That it why i dont feel the need to explain so much where it will cause more threads frm it isnt it? I dont mind people complaining bout me, well, i m glad i have patience..seriously, cold temper, though its gud that i wun have to fight with any1 but, when i say cold temper, i really mean cold. I dont mind hearing people talking to me for hours about against something i had in mind at the same time doesnt feeling much.not annoyed. not angry. not sad. nothing. Well, you should say 'oh, u shud be glad its cold not hot'oh yeah ? i really have feeling that by cold tempering or mere indifferent or regard it as feelinless will cause others more annoyed. but. cant change it. sorry. thats me. i will try my best to change for the better that i had now realised. i will try.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
which is super belated! My fren said i mite as well do it in august or sept because i mite as well do it fr 2011.==' Okay..LETS go!!!

2010

The biggest, cutest, pinkest(u think i m farhana meh), YEAR!!!
Okay, This year will be marvellous(i really hope)..everyine chasin their dreams...
but 1 thing, guys, we muz keep in touch k, i really miss you all so desprately, the laughters, the craziness, the annoyance haha..kiddin!
Okay,so the new year is here..hohoho (christmas meh..outdtd betul)
so, There is a well, a lil few stuff
(note to self~fion, dont trust fion when she say that~)

1. Get excellent result for SPM(pray for me)
2. Get driving license n rock the road..woohoo...
3. Get a scholarship
4. Ge a job n earn sum bucks
5. Get JPA or matriculation
6. Watch my diet (yalar yalr)
7. do charity i hope
8. Shoppng!
9. Settle unsettled issue with certain party or certain people
10. Outing wif frens (note to self~wait till ur expanses go up n see wat u got to say!!)


Hopefully, this year will be a much better year than before, bringin new experience.
No more impulsive, thoughtless, clumsy action.! n absorb that theory of
'think before you do'
OKAY.i hope. Then, hope i will be accepted to institutes that i want n cope wif it. HOpe i can love my family more everyday. HOpe i wun be so cold.
(Once, i called tracy n complained that i m kinda cold already n Tracy regards cold as mature because she said by then u will think more than u say, so u wun blurt out unnecesary nonsense!like the current me..==')

Hope i wun have to hide anything frm people i care. Hope i can change my negative attitudes(haha). HOpe i will not hurt anyone in my life.

REALLY SORRY FOR THOSE WHOM HAVE HURT EMOTIONALLY or PHYSICALLY(like any smacking).
Sorry if i never cared what are you all's feeling or opinions. Sorry, if i did somthing that bring u all to trouble. Sorry if i bring any pain to any of u without me realising. Sorry if i offended anyone in anyway as a student, a daughter or a sister or as a friend or as a secretary or prefect or ajk. or as a 'jie'. I did not mean it.

Really SORRY from the bottom of my heart.

Hope everything will cruise smoothly n happilyin 2010. ^^

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FOUND! FOUND! YIPPEE>>>hope it wun sesat again!

~My banner..reported missing since i dont know when~



WHAT IS WRONG WiTH tHE banner??Who ate it up?dont know why it dissapear. I thought my pc got prob then slow, or lagging..Then til now, its still empty. I try to retrieve n reload n adjust but still dont have.....haih..so ma fan..nidda go find new banner...sad...haih..gotaa hunt!^^

People tend to fear death which they had not know when shall come.
Death which signifies the end of something as well as a begining.
Yes, i admit...death is a part that is unavoidable in our life as a mortal but the acceptance of the fact wouldnt be pleasant at all.
but try to think about it, human go on with their life just as it is,
never know when the angel of death will come.
Nevr expected.
Precaution of basic life safety is yeah needed.
This feeling of responsibility is a lil heavy isnt it? but its vital.
Try comparing with those whom knew when they are going to die, waiting and dreading every moment of it. The fear, which state the moment.
like, this is the time.
its even painful for those whom knew when they will go because, they know the fact of them leaving their loved ones behind.
Even, for a person to expect the death of someone is also dreadfully painfull.
but this is the circle of life.
nothing can stop it and we have to move on to the next phase of life. want it or not.
its how life goes.

I miss you...^^
So long din hv chance see you od wo...
i oso dunno why i got this nice feeling seeing you, no matter i have what problem, when i think that i will be seeing you, all problems will go away n gimme a break a while.
last time, i look foward to seeing you everyday.
I m so dissapointed when you are not around or what.
I just dont know why i treat you different frm other ppl.
I dont care what people say oso, no mtr its ur acuaintance or mine. I really dont mind at all..as long as you dont mind o....
miss you dear.
i really do.

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SoRrY ItS A Lil late but this is my new year resolution...befor that..gt sum stuf to mention...^^


First of all, I want to say thanks to people around me especially god, my family, teachers and friends whom have helped me tru out the way.

God has helped me in my life. I have always turn to god when i have undissolved matter and god will always be there for me. Looking out after me. Helpin me mend my way. i clearly remembr how god help me wen i was so down. i pray hard n talk to god, asking fr help. Now, I dont know how to express my feeling of gratitude with words. Thanks.

My family has given me the most support i can never have imagined. i m a person whom wouldnt say out much bout my life to family as i think i can stay strong myself. I think there is no need to bother other ppl especially my family as i can solve my own problems n i dont think it would be mch help to me and i hate to repeat the negatv path but i wasnt tat rite. The feeling of being supported by a family is a real different feeling. Its a type of feeling like you have a support n dont have to worry of leaning down bcoz thr is sum1 to catch u. My parents has been vry considerate n excld me frm much chores whn i m hvn exam n hav to study all the time. They did not mind when i spend more tym with the books in my room everynight by my table than being with them nor i did go outing during weekends.

My dad really is vry caring...he will lookout fr me no mttr in wat i do n let me follow my dreams without question as long as i know what i m doin. At nite, once in a while whn studying, well...tak pasal pasal i feel scared cuz studying alone...he will accompany me even its in the middle of the nite...(i feel bersalah u noe..bt no choice...if i kept scared ni den i will end up sleeping..==') My dad help me wif my chores wen i m bz studying...n giv the most love a person can receive in their life. Thanks dad...

My mum is a lil strict but i can feel her love in her own special way. She will giv me freedom i wanted as well as caring fr my safety at the same time.(I m truly impressed by her method..seriously...i hv no idea hw she can gv me wat i want at the same time..what she expects from me....That is why i try my very best to save her the worriness...i dont want them to wori bout me...) My mum is willing to help me out if i hv any mttr at all...n discuss stuff with me n have my opinion...in things that will affect me...sometimes, i feel like she is like my sister..she is reli cute tho...she try her best to shape me as a gud person that will hv good atitude with her own way as well....i love you mum.

My bro leh..tho noti noti...(dun angry o) but he is vry nice leh(if didnt kek me)..help me hafal moral nilai wen my exam nite tat tym...^^..teach me to spin basketball(yalr..i will cut my fingrnail.) den teach me moonwalk(i stil cant moonwalk...==') teman me do chores......tuck me to bed(JUST KIDDING!! funny lar..exaggerAATING)..haha...let me nag bout school whl day...ur ta best!



Teachers in school..whom i truly cherish....help me lots in academic n life....without them...thr will no be me today...thanks...fr guiding me tru tis path...especially YOU teacher...^^

Friends.....Thanks fr helping me truout the way...sharing the nuttest, craziest times n oso the sad times with me..thanks fr those whom changed my life fr the bttr...n also those whom sat there n listen me whine without fuss...fr those whom gv me inspiration to study...This...i will remember forever....oso to my online frens...fr givin me ta chance to bug u at nite...n oso...to samila...next tym, trust me k when crossing the road...i will make it quick n safe...==' transparent dress~ one day i will improve my speed!^^

To my 'dear' in school...i will always miss you>>>you are free to find me anytime you want>>^^

Books...i oso will miss you all...(p/s i love you so much o...really. till my bro nag me bout the 'perfect condition' of the books n i warn him bout ta usual innavaibility of sej book in czip lee....) you*books* are so nice, accompany me to sleep. eat n oso watch tv..hahaha

school, i love you. i miss goin to school ody, miss running in the field(YA RIGHT), miss 'strolling'on the field(sound more proper), miss my prefect duty...miss doin reports...miss the feeling of the tired legs standing during essembly, miss doin rondaan...miss doin homework(...?!!?!) miss my class...miss loitering...(i m a gud gal actually...)...see you soon.

hmm...ok...new year reso keep fr next post..hahaha...tata^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!
Hope you all have a wonderful journey ahead in year 2010.

Hope all the aims n goals that you made will come true! Accomplish your purpose in life n find the passion to live it to the fullest!!!