RAPTOR WATCH IS BACK!

Hi! So whats hit??!
RAPTOR WATCH!
betcha you are right!so we made it through the event with
a pure heart n sincerity to help the nature.
(mengaku ni la we had party there)
okay, first thing first.

ATTENTION: Farhana~tis pichas all rompk frm ur blog, so please be knid on me n not sue me on this

(hu ask u eat my octopus??)
We took a trucload of pics!
me n farhana spotlight event..no matter whr.
.eating, walking, talking, crappin...okay..but thr are place whr FARHANA being so nice to me, in 'editing the pics'
(belive me,just wait n see how i smack you) so we switched! jeng jeng jeng..thx miss bernie...!Cozy huh...but she shifted niways...love u hanna!
-look at the bag, it wasnt half the among the amount she brought.. - =='

hanna kept puji her pic very nice...please lar...(okok, i admit, its nice... :)) dun angry~


ltr, after the briefing, we went to supper near the pool...it was more to..
MIDNIGHT SNACK!
ya, eat rice..funny!its so fattenning!
i was more worried she wil push us in to the pool in fact..


13th march~happy bufday yie yie!!RISE N SHINE PEOPLE!!! ok, me n farhana was sleeping so soundly on the bed when..........................................
UMAI
woke us up..haha..she is a nice girl i tell you..
(farhana is the lazy one)
haha, okay, umai reli vry teliti wan..

me n Ana : WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! SO FUNNY!!! BLAH~ BLAH~ *gossip this n gossip that* then, laugh fr no reason..---...WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Umai : shh~ jgn bising sangat...kuatnyer! (with the cute teguran face..CUTE!) Me n Ana : She so cute(^o^) we so noti.

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(this multiply twice..hmm..alright! multiply 6 times...==')

yo! blue hippo
sesat from duno where...hahaha..pity lar...no1 look at him...
*i support you k..*oh! you know why...look!!

Maya karin
is in the hse! no wonder all the attention goes on stage!! poor the hippo...Me n Umai...The cars were already looking at us...
(bet thy were thinking : OI! dun halang the road!!!
for pictures sake ==' worth it k..look, how cute?)

The books sold in the boothes!!! okok, i admit, i look at the sourvenirs only...
(wh, if u prefer books, sorry didnt get 1 fr u..hahas)

OUR booth!! yezza! doin the alpha charms!! do till our waist oso feel so lenguh coz not enough chairs!! n so v nidda gv the customer sit... in the end of the day,omg...lie down on the bed so nice feeling i tell you...thanks to felicia too taught us how to do..muacks~

they are acting like selling n buying..they deserve the oscar award i tell you!


LOOK at the birds..there were thousands of thm!!!!!!!
PD scenery...pettay huh!
the 'Supermodel'...>< (awal awal dah mimpi dah..wake up dude!) housemates~so friendly~..


~excited~it was very fun...the instrumental play


~well i had no idea why the pic turn out like this~



out of nowhr, there is this show...suddenly ni...>< His voice very nice~*claps*

THAT nite, no electricity i tell you...my gudness...so bored...we hd lotsa girl talk with felicia too...
FUN!!
i plug in my earphones to well make me sleep earlier
then...............my leg pain man! i was like
~must be the standing n bending during the day...~(dun say i old lar..><) so when the electric is back, went outside to knock my leg...okok, nicer to hear..massage..haha...takkan u wan me to wake umai n farhana frm their beauty sleep, ltr they gt panda eyes will scold me wan..==' Then i got a good idea, went to the balcony, so nice., the night view is superb!! the beach...the lights...*how nice if you were there with me ^^* 3rd day~

~HeNnA~
funny pic..yay! cn see my face!
sense of freedom


this pic is reli one beautifully captured pic! bravo farhana!


blek~^^



seashell~ pretty huh
oh,hus leg is that at the back??haha umai berangan apa?^^



then we had to go back...it was amazingly a fun n priceless experience !

Credits~

MNS : Which organizethis meaningful event to create public awareness...fr mother nature

Miss Bernie : For giving us this chance to participate although we are very young with no experience in this,yet you let us in despite many others more eligible applied..thank you so much..^^

My parents : Whom trusted me to go Tanjung Tuan as a volunteer with my frens without their supervision.Fr the 1st time. Whom trusted me to be independent ...Thanks^^

Farhana n Umai : Ana fr informing me bout this n Umai fr teman us n sabar wif these immature kids punya kerenah, we feel SAFE n sense of secureness with her around taking care of us.we wun wake up late bcoz gt her to watch after us ALL THE TIME.i hope you will get to be with the abang kereta of urs in th future..(farhana, dun rebut la..u gt dr. fakhri).^^

Raptors~????!! fr flying here so we can see you all...^^ <3

THANKS!!! We learnt a lot! We hope to participate n encourage more people to volunteer to create public awareness on preserving nature in the future!!!

CNY!!!^^

HaPpY ChInEsE NeW YeAr!!! okok, dont call me lame fr being so early about this k...juz kinda lazy on it...so this is how it went
1st day~ we went early in the morning...well..it was super packed!!like sardin in the car...thankfully, cousin tag along...making trip much more fun...^^ so fr reunion dinner, yeah, i stuff myself with tonnes of food...seriously..no kidding(letr i m gonna tell u how i put on my weight)..so v reached kinda early. n well, with my insomniac sleeping pattern, of course i cant sleep! wth...i rolled n rolled...wash up, stil rolling..so i settled with listening music n well..berangan...thn i juz slept..ok

CNY~ Followed dad to take satay in shop EARLY MORNING>>> wat? i have not enuf sleep...==' ya, i deserve it.. so









in Kg. Cina







Me, mum n lil puppy..! cute huh....^^ i so love it so much!

Me n Sean..he is 1 cute lil fella
Me n Alvin...yaya...我爱你了
Me n Kenneth...~i had no idea y most of ppl wear pink tht day~
Alvin! Look here!!! ^^
Me n Kenneth..ya...ignore the fact i m kinda short okay


Me and the beach..(??!!)





Me n Viviane...^^ p/s~ she oso vry tall



this pose inspired by wayne...##
me~
Me n Sean
Food~

Why I like it longer

WHY I LIKE IT LONGER

I would like to emphasize more on humans living their life a journey. Life isn't long. People had always whined on how short life can be, so short that it had reach it end without even us realising. In a nick of time. That is all it takes. All mortals live a specific amount of time in their life which does not differ much from one individuals to another, excluding those whom passed on due to sickness or accident or fate undeniably, but each and everyone of us, whom had the opportunity to be born into this world had a chance to live, each one had an equal chance to live. What differs between one of us and another is how we live our journey of life. It is the adventure, but the time passed fast, giving no chance for most of us to live our life a complete journey nor to realise our purpose in this world.

In each of us, there lies ahead a long narrow road of future ahead of us. Its our duty to keep ourselves on track, not others. Its our own life, we do our own mistakes. That is why I like our life journey to be longer so that we can live our life to the fullest and which means giving us a chance to go through the adventure as well as correcting our past mistakes in order for us to live a meaningful life.
Based on my past life experience, I really wanted our lives to be longer. I'd like it to be longer. Keith and I are really best of friends. Keith is the only person whom inspired me in my life, besides god and my closest family.

It never came to me that i will meet someone so different, so influential in my life. So precious for me. The memory he carved in my life will never be forgotten even eternity shall come. How he cradled my journey of life, how he changed my life for the better. I really hope our lives would be longer to continue our pavement of memory. I was touched by his uttermost inner strength, the courage she had to move on no matter what lies ahead. We met when I was in 8th grade in some ordinary school event. Keith was giving some speech. Looked really forced though. I thought our fate ended there but in a quick time, I came to grasp the fact that we were in the same game club. Its a funny thing i had never seen him. Maybe I wasnt really looking.

Being an ordinary student in school, I'd never been popular, nor did Keith, but one thing for sure, he has been an all rounded student.Introvert. That is the most I knew. Keith, being three years my senior, making us rarely bump into each other. However, I noticed after a while. Keith is always alone. He always carry the worrisome, exhausted look. I had no idea where did the inspiration come from but I made up my mind to get to know him. His side of life. I put myself in a piece, gather up my courage and took a step to start of our relationship as friends. From there, I had learnt that Keith seldom smile, but when he does, its worth craving forever.

Keith has the height of an athlete with squarish round face. He has a dark brunette coloured hair, cropped until his shoulders. I still remembered his tanned skin due to excessive traning under the scorching sun, on the burning court. The image of bruises on his knees are still vivid in my memory, the price he has to pay as a team captain. His sacrifices are worth it when the team never fail to grab gold medals in any tournament. Keith owns the most beautiful iris, like those beautiful brown eyes you'd only see in commercials. His eyes are deep and thoughtful. However, his eyes are worn out due to preparation for the battle in the examination hall, therefore posses heavy eye bags.

Keith is an excellent student. A hope for his family, his school. Not only he is the captain of the basketball team, he has a pair of gifted hands that can paint magnificent art pieces and play beautiful, velvet melodies. His parents, however do not support her interest as they felt studies should be in first, very most importance. Keith is always pressured in anything he do. He tried his best to fulfill his parents wishes except one. He wants to be a doctor. To be able to help needy people in poor countries. His parents waged an all-out war against his wishes, insisted he will take over the family business. Keith spent countless sleepless nights in tears as he fought for his courage to move on. For his dreams. Even as capable as Keith is, he is still an ordinary human. He needed a break. However, he stayed strong until the end.

For me, I am just another ordinary student. I am living my life on a track.I studied like its the end of the world each time, but unlike Keith, scoring a string of perfect, excellent results is like finding a needle in a haystack. Being an emotional person myself, dealing with downs in life, family issues and peer pressure seemed sufficient to rip me off into pieces. I always feel lost without direction to move on. Without aims nor dreams. When Keith came into my life, it felt like he is like an angel sent from above. Whenever I felt like i needed someone, Keith will always be there for me, offering countless advices and support whenever I felt like giving up. He never let me to. He'd lend a helping hand and a shoulder to tear on when I was broken beyond repair. He start to become the hope in my life, the light in my sorrowful days. Not only he assist me in my studies which gradually improve, he coached me in basketball, enabling me to join the elite team. Keith has thought me poetry, a way to express myself. Then , we'd always spent out time together. Making the most out of it. In such a short time, every moment counts.

Not long after that, Keith graduated from school. I no longer see him. I couldn't get used to it even after many - many months and I don't think I ever will. Keith thought me the meaning of life. I had seen his pure heart of gold. His strength and courage touched me to the deepest core. He thought me how to dream, how to pursue my aims and ambitions to the highest level. I missed him a lot. Without him, I felt weak. Each time I go to the basketball court, I would see his shadows there. Each and everytime, it did not fail to cause stabbing pain within my soul.


After a couple of years, while I was sauntering on the way home, I saw a resemblance of Keith. I was unsure of it until I seen him smile. But why? What happened? I moved closer to have a better look. Keith's face is powder pale and his cheekbones are really showing. I saw the crooks in his joints. He still carry the beautiful, more exhausted eyes, except with thinner hair. I was shocked. Suddenly, I felt a chill crawling up my spine. I prayed hard my estimation weren't true. My heart pounded like its in a race. Keith read my facial expression and said, ''leukemia''. I stood still. My heart skipped a beat. I took some time to digest what is going on. Tears start to well up in my eyes. I tried my best not to let them spill. Attempt proved futile. I embraced him hard. I saw the painful expression in his face again. I couldn't believe fate did this matter to me. I was broken. My knees buckled tight under me. Such a brisk time together and now we are going to separate forever? I wished our time is longer. I wished time is long enough for us to create memories of our own. Long enough for us to appreciate our moments together until we are old and shabby. Now, in reality, I just hope our time is long enough to cure Keith and my wounded heart. I knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, on the crown of my head to the soles of my feet and deep in my empty chest, how love gave someone the power to break themselves. I knew I have to stay strong. I have to. As long as it takes, I am willing.

Keith has to go oversea for medical treatment. In the airport, he promised he will get well soon and he flash my favorite smile, although it did not reach his eyes. I kept telling Keith how I wanted our lives to be longer, for us to fulfill our dreams. In the last day before Keith boarded the plane, he gave me a silver velvet wrapped box and ask me to open only after he has departed. When I was about to say bye, he place his finger at my lips. I teared and wave him bye. He did not return my waves and just walked away. As promised, I open the box and found an elegant,luxurious, LG Chocolate phone, with a note 'Its not that I don't miss you but I don't believe in saying goodbyes because with LG Chocolate, can keep in touch as always'.
I smiled beneath my tears.

Years after years, I had never seen Keith face to face but through the 3G technology, its made even better with LG chocolate phone wide screen and panaromic display. Its easy accessibility has made my life as a person whom never owned a mobile phone easier. I can check e-mails from Keith easily.

However, although Keith act strong, I knew that his health is deteriorating. I knew it was far serious than it sounds. I felt so difficult to move on but i tried my hardest with Keith's smile in my mind. As time passes, Keith told me not to contact him anymore. I know the chemotherapy has worn him out physically and mentally, causing him harder to carve a smile. He told me he want me to keep the image of him happy and healthy. I know he don't want to make me worried. I respect his wishes reluctantly as he insisted.

Until today, I still have Keith and his intrinsic strength in my mind. Keith told me that every cloud has silver lining. I still hold on to his words until now. I did not know what happen to him but deep down inside me, I knew that he will make it. He will never let go and he will always fight for his life to the very end. I believe he will make it out and become a very successful doctor in the future. To help people around the world. His only dream. I truly hope time will allow me not only to see Keith's shadow on the basketball court but he himself playing with me.

I kept praying each day that Keith's life will be longer so he can reach his aims. I hope I will live long enough to see Keith grasp his dreams. I hope we both will be able to spend eternity together after all we've been through. I hoped both of us have longer time,to cherish our lives. In fact, I hoped everyone has longer time.This I just realise when I felt the pain when I was facing Keith's condition. I 'd like to be longer.I prayed hard. I hoped from the bottom of my soul.

Without more time, all these would be barely impossible. Our dreams couldn't be grasped and to add to these, without dream, life is just a barren of field with frozen snow. Look how important is the time to me,for me to achieve my dreams, just like how I really wanted to live my life to the fullest. With that, I truly hope my life and Keith's life would be much longer so we can spend our time together achieving our dreams in the future. With LG Chocolate, life is even better, enhancing the beauty of living both our lives a journey. With longer lifetime, I can get the opportunity to watch my dreams come true. That is why I like it longer.^^

Kumon

OKAY, today gonna talk bout my first day in work OKAY, here i go>>>


I reached the Kumon centre. Then, i sat at a place n start marking the papers. Its not tht much at first n i mark n mark. And then, a teacher teach me how to asses the student on numbrs n time table. Okay, this wasnt tht heavy till reach late evening...I RUSHED LIKE DUNNO wat to mark fin...thenteach few stdnt math . stuff..totallt jack myself....the student noe how to mark better than me i tell u...==' paiseh...though its really bundles to mark..bt its really a great experience..so thnkfull cn get the job...din expect^^

Night

Last night, was a sleepless night for me. I went to bed early( 1.30am !!?!), *for hols timing its early lo*. I thought i want to improve my habit by going to bed early(be a good girl!!?) n so i did. I used to turning to bed very very late in the dawn(i m not exagerrating). While every1 is fast asleep on their beds, i m here, onlining, watching shows n stuff. I kinda liked the quiet, calm feeling but i know this could not last. fine, fine. so i went to bed n tuck myself in after washing up. Like usual, i cant sleep n well, i blast the music.(this is exagerate, i just played the music=.='') After a while, i still couldnt sleep. Until my bro came in to bed and then fall asleep, i m yet, not asleep. So i turned around n start to think of everything. everything in my life and put me in a terrible condition of misery. NOw brilliant, i couldnt sleep because i was too miserable n pathetic. Then i went downstr to get a cup of warm milk(actually, only a little..quarter cup?wtv), they say milk cn make u sleep easier. Okay, then i thought of some stuff, some happy memories n a bunch load of sad memories. ANd when i kept self blaming, i had no idea when i fell asleep. In my dream, i had only the happy memories to think of. I was so happy that i felt surreal. When i woke up, i accept the fact n move on with my ordinary life.

p/s~ What a lousy post..damn it

me

Well, i decided to straighten my hair in mico...juz for a change fr tis yr cny...i hv no comment on myself but...well, it looks longer now...^^


CNY coming..prepared few clothes...n hope fr lotsa ang pau...(hopefully~)..^^

Regrets

Some regrets in life could never be redeemed. It will be with you till the end of your life but what makes its different from one another is how you accept it as a fact and move on.

TWO PARTS

When its like two person in a same body, watching the world go by, i had nothing , much to say. In this night, under the roof, i had no idea how is it outside. dark? starry night or its only the lonely moon. Me, sitting by my desk facing the laptop feeling so lonely. Even with the crowd itself i felt alone, no matter where i am. In the city, on the streets? Even in the mall, at uttermost boredom, i sat on the bench watching people passing me by. Took out the rubic cube n give it few spins. People passing by will look and then move on. Make me thought of my life. I walk and i walk until i met something to ponder, then i move on. I had not known how far is this road ahead of me but i kept walking. Watching at others living their life give me more doubt to myself. my ability to regain happiness. I am satisfied with my life, i am very grateful. The thing left is the journey to discover myself. The feeling of loneliness is really hard to bare. So what is you are surrounded by hundreds of people? So what if you have thousands of accuaintance? If you are not in one piece with your innerself, the is no point at all. So, now i am searching. Really searching.

TESTING TESTING>>my blog will be down fr a while.....so ignore the intro n stuff..thy are presets..^^

Note to farhana: i dun think u want to noe,
so seriously, dont have to read this.
I went to animal shelter today with my dad.
-hols 3 months, ntg to do..so do sum good deeds fill time-
When i reached there, i pushed the door open and see many dogs around.
(stop reading farhana..dun say i din warn u).
I walk to the counter wif my dad.
So, since tomorrow will be a jumble sale, many ppl were there. So i help them out with the books...
THERE were tonnes, n tonnes n tonnes of books.(I M NOT JOKING).
ITS donated by people.
So there is a friendly girl, she is doing her a-levels now,she is so friendly. She guided me how to do the task n stuff. She is reli nice. AND then, i saw many dogs around.
THEY WERE SUPER CUTEEEEEEEE!!!
Well, there were cats too but they were in the cages,
maybe they dun nid tat, THAT much exercise.
So, sum free dogs will walk around n theres tis white dog named Lulu.
so frenly,
i see like she is smiling, I can't help but smile back at her. She came around my legs like targeting at my hands or watch, i dont know..=.=
I just continue to do work while Lulu then walk to other ppl n there is tis girl whom distracted Lulu that PUT HER HANDS IN LULU'S MOUTH!!!
n Lulu likes it so much...she nibbled n nibbled....SUPER CUTE...n Lulu did sum rolling stuff-later, she was playing or flirting with other dogs..n they ran around n around n...well...I dont know...-
There is oso another dog but i forget to ask the name. Its brown in colour. n I dont know but when i was standing there, she/he stand on its feet n
PUT BOTH HER?HIS PAWS ON MY HAND LIKE TRYING TO STAND AGAINST ME....
I was like..'scare me la you'..=.=
Then I met PUMPKIN.
.a 2 months old dog..still small.puppy actually.
Its so BEAUTIFUL...like cream colour..she looks like 'manja manja like that' n
REALLY look like those advertisement type of beautiful dog, beautiful brown eyes.
i look at her n she look at me back..super terharu.....
.i think she is about to take afternoon nap...really feel like want to take her home..but home no place to keep dog..sad..I love you pumpkin. Next time i take her pic k...tis tym no chance bcoz so busy arranging the books. if u dont want to touch dogs or really hyper afraid of dogs, do prepare mentally, frankly speaking, they wil TOUCH you.^^
so,
ANY OF YOU WHOM WANT TO GET A DOG, DONT BUY IN SHOP, ADOPT THEM FROM ANIMAL SHELTER. THEY NEED A HOME.