loser

Todays post it for myself.
Im a loser.such a jerk. seriously, no doubt.
I m such a loser that I don't care for others feelings isnt it?
Or i cared too much of the feelings of others, which fires back,as if i'd never cared before? I hurt people around me, people close to me.
Always.
I m sorry, but i couldnt turn back time.
if I could, i might just shut myself out from everyone.
Better for them, better for me. I wont ever get the chance to hurt any1.
they would be vry happy.
This change, maybe in coll life?
Just don't care. Cold, like whom i was before.
until i dunno what-in- the- world that change me. At least i wont hurt anyone by then. I didnt. Even if i did, i wont feel a thing.
Dont know since when tht change n i have feelings.
afterall.
And that hurts me more than ever.
I felt more pain than bfr. It really suffers. Now? as if i have ntg to do?
I m hurting ppl around me. I felt so bad. I m sorry. Truly. I never meant fr any ths to happen . i loser.