my FRIEND....take care...i love you

The fondness is no longer there...shall i retrieve?I cant take it anymore....i hate you fr hu u r...for this.. i blame myself...all tis while....wen v r 2gether...v reli did make ta best out of ourselves..as tym bring us together....closer den othr 900 students in the school...thr is no secrets between us...nothing....v cn read eachs mind n do ta same mathematic equation mistake....omg...whr can v find smthng like tat...even exam we've been judging which karangan wud each of us do...talkng bout it...i cn say v r perfect together...dunno...since whn....i did not realise...wht i hv been mistakenly misjudge....v began too been drifted apart..well...i cant deny...i m jealous so what...?so what?i m worried bcoz i care...not like others FAKERS who act tht they r so concerned....but ta worst was...i cant believe...u r actually TOGETHER WITH THE FAKERS....well..tis is all my point of view...nt othrs,,,now....left me alone...wif no one to walk with....though wht u hv done..i noe u sacrifice alot...fr me..like no1-fren- ever does...i love u...i reli love you....fr tis i care..i reli care...i cant help u frm being wif sum1 else...-stupid jerk-den...i cant say anything...deep inside....i m reli hurt...reli hurt...cry fr days.....u din noe...we've been together fr 4 yrs plus.....reaching 5...but out memories....if u giv me 50 years...couldnt been restored....but...u wif him juz fr.....few months?n u trust him tat much...i m reli hurt....i hv aways said....dun trust any1 excep urself n ur family...making me ur exception...i wont bring you down...not like an othr frens tat u hv....i can sacrifise fr you...my time...helping u isnt a problem.....v r one.....i cant imagine living without u....maybe u can....bt ....i cant...without u..live wud be dull....no craziness....no laughter.....no loitering....bt if needed...yes i can live without u...bt....i wud be in pain.....i hate myself fr loving you tis much....v were so close....close till....i can walk with my eyes closed in ur hse..i dun mind u took my stuff fr even a year...i dun mind much...but...being wif u .....is eating me up.....i hate him.....hate till theres no words fr it.....everytym u talked....yes..i admit i cant stop scolding....its reli painfull...i dun like to compete fr a person....i will feel hurt.....very....its okay.....if tis is wat u wan...i will leave u alone....wun interupt anymore....go on ur own life.....i will slowly leave ur life....u mite be happier without me.....go ahead....wif huever u wan to be frens wif...fakers anot...its ur choice...up to you....i dun wan to suffer like tis anymore....i hope...1day in ur life...u will remember me....being ur bestfriend before....take care...love you...reli love you...

~woke up~
~Fion~