I wouldnt know what is goin on with me..frequently..i revert
to the older version of me..though i never change..few years back..i often felt
like i am just a soul in a body of me..like i am watching my life passing
through me in the outside world. I no longer recognise who am i and what am i
doin in this earth surface.its like i am seing the world from the inside of my
soul instead of the outside me, time passing through outside.i no longer
recognise people around me as they are. I question myself, the meaning of my
life..the route i shall take and what is my purpose in the world, living. Its
very simple actually.In this stage of my life, where i actually experience
laziness,well..its a part of human nature i wouldnt object. Its the feeling of
wanting to experience everything. but now, i often feel apart of myself only is
living life as it is..eat, sleep, shopping,reading and other basic living stuff
while the other part of me is watching the other part doing all these to
continue my life as a human. I have no idea what i could do to bring both part
in humn again. still,when i search my role in the world, i realise it wasnt
about myself all the long, it was for others but i am glad. I love my
family..and my friends. In future, i really wanted to do something for
them..now..i would like to push myself to the edge where i can excell and get to
achieve my ambition. By then, i can help more than only a person(myself), i can
help others in the world, those who need me there..my family, friends and other
people here and overboard where countries are striving, where people are
starving, where human beings are pushed to the limit just to survive their live,
just over the minimal living border, unlike here, with abundant of sources and
living helps, people wants more than they can get..its again,human nature.
Maybe, my dreams sounds to high up if you would say, and all i can say is, my
journey wouldnt be easy, it will even be called tough. indeed. but, i promise
myself, my family and the world, i have tried my best, i am trying my best and i
will always try my best. In the end, i will leave the rest to god. I know i am
nothing compared to other great people that i know, saved many, give lives to
many. I know i am just a small character in this puzzle of the world, a
miniscule indeed.unnoticed, but i know, if i made it to my dreams, i will be
able to play my part and purpose in this world. To make the world a better
place. I know people will say what an ordinary girl like me could do, but i will
prove to myself and the world,that i will try my very best to reach them.To
bring hope and touch the lives of others, like how n family and friends
did.Pray for me, to help me to help others. I know its not easy at all, but its
worth the try. Worth the try.

~ReAcHiNg OuT~