Blurry vision

I am unsure now. Is this just a simple thing like i used to think? Or now its gotten much more complicated. Its my fault isn't it? Now payback time. I m no longer sure where I am heading. This is the reality, the society, the truth. This is where I am. but, by doin this, makes me more selfish than ever. Forgive me will you? I don't know why its gotten this far. I want to put a stop to all these, but i couldnt bring myself to so it. Maybe, after all, its a simply misunderstanding. Is it?Why..why must it be this way? There is no benefit. There is something more to me people would never understand. I am not the person people think I am. or I used to be. They will never know how much it hurts. Or, is this just another innocent game? I don't know, n I never want to know.