I dont know why, but seeing the future of mine in front will make me feel so scared. so worried i couldnt grasp my dreams. i know many ppl will say i m dramatic, n so but i couldnt bear without this dream of mine. which i have worked on for many many years. This is the dream i m looking on, to motivate me to study, all these while(farhana noes that^^)especially emo tat time. without this dream, i m nobody. Know, i m looking on my pathway i could go, others than my original dream, the dream that makes me study tru the endless nights, through emotional problem, as long as i think of it, i will regain the strength to move on. This dream of mine, was earlier suggested by parents but they hav never forced me, in fact, they are the most supportive parents in this world for me. They'd never stop me from going to my dreams no matter what since i was small. Being a human being, as a. ordinary child, i changed my ambition many many times, i mean it. after i grow up to upper secondary school, my mind is set. before that time come, ppl around me are worried of me not having an aim in life, usually when they ask me what i want to become when i grow up, i will say i dont know. I can still remember the smile on my mums face when she heard i have already set my dreams in my mind, n i decided it was what she suggested earlier.the only difference is i know what i m doing, i know where i am going. I slowly plan my route n pray hard that god will help me. I spend many years lingering around my mind, not knowing what to do in my life, but 1 thing i finally know, life isnt gonna last forever. the most important thing for me is to make the most out of it. This point, everyone has their own definition of 'making the most out of it'. for me, i have mine too. but, mine, is a lil tough. I dont know how to explain this, but if you know me well, i will know what i m going tru. For me, my life isnt about myself only. i want to make changes in otr ppls life. its complicated. sometimes, i even feel that i m going against my needs, but my mind is set, after i think n consider the life aftr my studies, the values in it. I m willing to do the hard work n spend more sleepless nights for almost a decade to come. I m willing n with gods' blessing, hopefully i will make it. i have discussed my plan with many many parties n people,family,lecturers, students, and frens, in order to get more info, n i know my life ahead of me wouldnt be easy as this is the path i have chosen for myself, but i will do whatever it takes to get there. no matter what happens in the end, at least i tried my best n have no regrets.