Actually, i was wondering, when i pursue my studies in the future, will i stay the way i m like i m in school? trying my best to bring sunshine wherever i go? trying my best to make people smile? I couldnt deny, highschool was a blast for me, i learnt a lot, and my personality well, did upgrade a lil, by the years. From a person whom type of really innocent girl to a lonely, self dependent girl as i grew maybe because lack of friends, or maybe i had not learn how to be dependent to others,tho surrounded by many people, to a person whom learnt to have true friends, when i start to depend a lil by lil to my bestest frens in primary, never looking back at the past, to a person whom build a really close relationship with few friends n i felt like we belong in the same world, tho she is indifferent but i talk more a lil. i hav always felt her care to me in her very own special way.^^ This period of time in primary,i was kinda introvert i would say. Like anything happens in the outside world that doesnt involve me n my bestfriend will not affect us. We are happy as we are. really happy. We went separate class tho in 2ndary,but we still keep in touch.. In high school, i changed into a person which i had not knew. Seriously, i was an indifferent person at first,not much feeling, nothing matters to me...like 'i couldnt care less' that type of person. As tym passes, learnt a lot from my close frens, n well, i m kinda cheerful,open n happy..well, at least that is what eveyone see. My emo problem always come in the way, i hadnt know how to get rid of it. Its, painful. Time by time, i grew up to be a person whom cared for others more than anything else, even more than myself. I dont really think what matters to me, but all i had been thinking is of others feeling, others heart, others opinion...so that i will never hurt them in any way. I learnt by day, if i hurt any1, i will blame myself fr countless times,which is very,very painful.The burden is too heavy. Sometimes, i prefer to be myself which is feelingless,cold, then, i wouldnt care less bout other things, but by doing this, i will hurt ppl too... In the future, i cannot guarantee i wouldnt continue to change, i dont know when i will shut myself down again, when i will be cold again, when i will close myself from others..i donnt know..