Prefect Camp...^^

HI.....me again. On Saturday me n most of ta prefects went to ta camp in Sg Gabai..Cheras..its called kem An - Naim..erly in ta morning come to school n i bring my luggage..actually can pull but paiseh la..like da xiao jie like tat...so i angkat lor..so v so exited like dunno wat...den i realise...i forget to bring panadol...so me n shantini went to buy..(it save my life leh later..)..Then, ta bus come od...so ta form 5 all wanna sit ta air cond bus(thy tot ta othr bus no ac...so form 5 ma...den thy oso get ta bus...-include me- sweat od myself...but fr me cuz yiling save place fr me...)den..v reach liao....n v got a shock...A SHOCK...it was reli like outskirt of town...n village like tat...v was like....r u sure??here is whr v r gonna stay??????omgomgomg...den v take out our bags n put near ta dewan.-it doent look like a dewan...more to a huge pondok-den..v have to arrange ourselves in a line...so v told dem v made our groups..n get in lor....so...lantik sze ruiy as ketua n nik as assistant....n dey warn us if v did anythng wrong...thy will kena...ltr...wen v go dewan n put our shoes aside....while hear ta ceramah...THEY TOSS OUT SHOES TILL ALL MIXED UP BECOZ V DIN ARRANGE IN TA SAME LENGTH!!!!!!!IT WAS KEMAS BUT NOT SAME LENGTH!!!!MOST of us was pissed off..i din reli mind tat tym....wats ta worse...juz pick up lo...i din reli care....ta GUY OSO said tat no1 manage to get out of tis camp without weeping...tat moment...i say to myself...tat i cannot cry...den welcome new rule tat obviously convent students-surtout les prefects-tat is............drum rolls..............-cannot talk in ta canteen-fuh...bcoz of tis...sze ruiy a.k.a zorro n nik have to sit on ta ground to eat....pity....den v got ice breaking n i m in alvina's group....-oso wif mayyie again-den ta name is 'alco' means alvina n cooperation or always cooperate...yea..i luv my group alot...LOVE YA LOTS....so v got sum games.....ta fasilitators was so strict..very....n gave us ceramah all tis.....ir was kinda inspiring....^^ltr v hv to write dariku untukmu....-negative things for ppl....n i got 2...1st-i t

fion to fion...talk a lot summore...get to work la...

talk too fast 2nd-tension too fast.....ok....got ta point..hehe ltr in evening...v got obstacle games..here i learnt a lot...after kena scolding...i realise....its no point v do things quickly without thinking....v muz stay focus....on ur goals....dun be greedy.....v work as a team...ltr...sze ruiy n nik hold a piee of paper written dadah 10kg....ta fasi ask us ta hukuman....so he said tat he is gonna send them home...hu noes he is serious....he say symbolicly....so v argued a while but he outstand us....n v oso ignore.....hu ta heck will think he is serious????v oso go on taking dinner. bath....tat kind of thing....ltr...come ta debat part....v debat like no1 punya business...n talk n talk...-girls ma-debat goes on n on n on......till 1 am...den...thy announced....zorro n nik have to leave for their mistake....taking paper written dadah....tat point based on my experience there is no way they will be sent back but...to ta extend whr they go up ta car n drive off..make me question my own intergrity..n ask myself...i actually ask myself...-did i make ta wrong assumption??-so...they call navee, bee li n i out of ta circle n talk....talk bout our wrong opinions n make us realise..tis n tat...a while..den....i got stomach cramp-dun ask y-...tahan ni lo...n den wen i went back to ta circle...i ate panadol without drinking water...almost choke...thank god i m save anot...bee li hv to gv me heimlish manor...gudness...so i was thinking of wat to say....i felt as leaders, v got ta responsibility to protect n standout for our members....for our prefects..i couldnt see zorro n nik juz go like tat...ta worst part is i myself couldnt believe myself tat my first assumption-tat is was a test-is right anymore....but i could never risk ta prefects dont you think?no matter wat is my opinion...prefects first...myself later...so i decided to fight for it-ashikin n syuha wasasking me to say smtg od..i kept thinking n decided,ta fasi cant hear me so i walk infront...i was kinda worried though..but..at last..i say to myslf tat i gotta do smtg-...aldo i almst went insane for fighting my own voice....its ok...i thought...i decided...since v had brought all of them here...v shall bring all of them back together...thr...i found ta courage..i oso realise,after ta guy scolded me...."macam ni ke kamu nak jadi pemimpin??"seriously...at tat tym...i hav woken up...i see things differently...thr..i found a lil light...to keep things in place...i tried...but i still did not manage to keep my tears up....i cried...god...ta worst part is...i hv to talk wen i m still crying...gudness...to defend othrs...never in my life think of doin tat...seriously paiseh...but nvm...its worth it...i wanna say sorry to henusha...for closing ur point...tat is to bring us all back......tat i proposed....but i believe...if u were in my place...u will do ta same...its for ta gudness of all...reli sorry....to others...if i shouted at u guys anytym, anywhr in ta camp.....i m sorry...i din mean it.....i dunno hu...but...i m juz sorry...at last frm tis...i learnt to be a leader frm heart...to be wif thm...i knew tat wast they ws doing to zorro n nik is ta right thing....yes...i m telling u...leader always have to bear their members mistake....even us ajk....v r ta same...v gone tru ta same thing over n over again....but most importantly...v have to be strong..n as a leader...v have to think a step further n wiser...to keep every1 safe n happy....its not all juz about u...its about every1....n i oso realised tat every1 is special in their own way....n v muz take our job seriously..n work hard for it...to enable you to appreciate wat is coming.....if not...everythng is wasted...tis camp has taught me alot...far more than i expected...sorry guys if i have not been a gud secretary..sorry.

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Bedtime story-tats y me n yl slept at 3 am plus...-Talk=>WEn wanna bath tat tym...me n yl went lo...den myie say no 1 in ta nex toilet..so i oso go wif her....den i hear yiling shout 'fion a??call fion??'but too crouded till i kenot turn backso i juz go...den hao min told her tat i went wif may yie...so wen i wan bath tat tym...i heard yiling shouted...smrr 'fion leh??whr is she o...i din brng my dunno wat...'so i oso shouted back i m here leh....in a different area...so at nite i told her tat ta whole toilet can hear her shouting...paiseh...haih..haha...den v laugh like mad ppl...i think ta ppl sleeping near our bed oso will wake up....hahaha ta 2nd day wasnt tat strict...instead v reli enjoyed ourselves...v jump into ta kolam...omg...jump u noe...i repeat...JUMP...TWICE..n v splash water like dunno wat.....n ply floating....me, yling, navee,may yie, ying bing,elisha,hao min, bee li....n all of us...many humans....all oso jump inside n reli hv fun like din swim before like tat...haha

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Actually...else den ta fasi...ta place...ta memories n experience...i miss 1 more thing...YOU..during tis camping period.....n ta times at school...i felt...tat i reli actually cared for a person --wait..-Yi Ling..u r a special case k..tat wan keep fr my journal.so dun kembang d..not u...haha-i cant believe i actually care for tis person tat i thought wud hate me as much as how i was frustrated to her past few years back...i noe you r using me...i get it...so at a point..i reli felt...u r not worth it..but i help u with all i can....not exceeding my limit....as a s/u...i hav a limit...but u wudnt see wat i hv done...its ok..though i noe u r using me..but...i try my best to help u as a fren...i missed ta tyms v r together...though i noe its fake...as time passes...i try hard to believe in u...to assume u r wif me as a fren..like my othr frns...till now... i m not sure..but 1 thing i noe...it doesnt mttr anymr..i m always here....if u got anythng....juz find me...i wont mind..i will try my best..i m like tis(oni you wud noe wat i mean)..is bcoz if i m ta othr way round...do you think v can actually be frens?do you?even ppl ask me to maintain a distance..did i?no i did not...its ok...till here...

Menara pangsa...super hot....

Pn Nirmala giving speech...

Me n keerthana...oops...so messy....

Me n Cikgu Bell....

All ta fasi stand to wait fr us to shake hands...

All ta prefects concentrate to hear speeches...

Tis is wat i called mud mask.....

Jungle talk...survivor course...

in ta jungle oso sempat pose..haha

building menara pangsa.....-tis is how i got my tan....oh dear..

ta group discussing.....scary wei...

Elisha yeo on ta bed...wan breakfast??

Alvina,Wei Jane, Soo Min, Sze Ruiy, Me(so fat..haha)....^^

Shantini n me....frenz forever...

Conclusion....ta fasi is not bad.....reli teach me alot...till now...i regret din become a gud ajk but i tried my best...reli...i reli tried my best to put ta board in order....i love ta camp^^
Group photo.....love you all.....love prefect board.....love my job...^^

Teachers' day..2009

Its been a while since i've blogged...it was a busy week...real bz...everythng comes at a point whr a person hav to split their body into half or triads n i m so not joking..experience proved everything...tat whole week...well since navee n i were in charge of perasmian..(aldo i dun wan but made it in...n glide our way tru anyway)so here is our fantastic members....Sze Ruiy(Zorro...i will update on tis in ta next post kie..haha p/s-she is gonna smack me...so dun tell her ya), Soo Min,nadiah,nabila(i not sure ur name...so sorry),lavannia..may yie,shahiela,roshini(gal in ta box),wan ting,prithini,wei jane, n got summore but i m so sorry i forgot ur name...reli sorry...nvm..so i show ta pic...u guys dun angry ya...^^
~Ta da...here they are...^^~


~Every1 waiting ta box to be opened...drum rolls..~

~Can u see ta nice banner?v did it twice..fuh!thanx guys..if
not bcoz of u all v wudnt have done it..
~All ta Ex-Co teachers pulling ta ribbon...excited~

~Pn. Norlia signing ta cheque~





~Fly balloons fly~

~Ta beautiful cupcake is made by Alia's mum..very nice till i taksampai hati eat....~

looking

the final year....i m gonna miss everything...everybit of ta sch...i will miss my teachers, frens, lab, n oso...ta hall where i used to play piano whenever i felt hurt...ta old piano...which ppl always complain tats its old....but i felt juz fine on my fingers...though there r few 'keys' which nids to be tuned....bcoz...in ta hall is whr i can reli pour out everything.....-without gaining more weight or hurting my body i assume..haha-reli nice....now...on my bed...plnng future...on which road shud i go....will i regret?i dunno...will i be able to bear ta pain tats bout to unfold....or shall i bear it now....its too much fr i m not tat srong...

i said tat i wun look back,
as a human that is what i lack.

YAY!!!FINALLY ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!I REPEAT OVER!!!!!After weeks of sleepless nights n heart miseries of exam.....its over....reli suffered like hell......omg...i m so happy....now i have a long list on wat to do....yipee...oh ya..u noe wat....i came back yesterday n wanted to sleep...cuz tired with panda eyes...den wanna merdeka ma...so i decide to sleep....den...gues wat...i spend dunno how long on the bed rolling n i cant sleep....wat a mess...=.=untill i count my fingers fr many tyms -WeI HoNg's idea...was 100 tyms^^-den i got lazy n end up sleeping...haha..irony...but i woke up few tyms....cuz exam tat tym i woke up many tyms at nite to revise....but now...i wanna force myself too sleep oso hard..haha....gotta tune back..^^.n yesterday...v plan to eat at mcd..den i got meeting...so yiling n ngai go 1st..so wen i look at ta watch''omg!!navee!its 3.50pm!!mcd promo gonna end...'' so she say''nvm lo...won't sempat wan'' n i was like...''navee!never give up...v still have hope '' n i bring her to run wif me thr ...haha...not run la...walk super speed..den v reach thr at 3..so...mcd tym is only 2.55..n v were sweating...so v manage n i told her...see?there is always hope...haha....den v go walk ta town...to buy things...n cloth fr prefect...n it was super sunny..haha..okie den ...tata fr nw ^^..

~TuNiNG MySELF~

broken

Finally it happened.....if i did not decide to come to st.john area sports day....i wud be ta fool....being lied frm you.....u lied to me...u lied..i hope u dun come to see my blog here....it will look as if i m ta one at fault..i dun wan to say much...my heart is broken...at tat very moment....i reli regret ..i hate myself...i regret fr lying to myself tat u loved me..tat u used to love me......i was wrong...now it seemed to me.. i was ta one loving you alone..caring of you....u dun bother at all.....sori every1 fr lying urself n myself...sori fr those questions tat pierced my heart left unanswered...j'espere vous etes content....maybe 1 day u will realise...but...thn it doesnt matter to me anymore.....

broken

my FRIEND....take care...i love you

The fondness is no longer there...shall i retrieve?I cant take it anymore....i hate you fr hu u r...for this.. i blame myself...all tis while....wen v r 2gether...v reli did make ta best out of ourselves..as tym bring us together....closer den othr 900 students in the school...thr is no secrets between us...nothing....v cn read eachs mind n do ta same mathematic equation mistake....omg...whr can v find smthng like tat...even exam we've been judging which karangan wud each of us do...talkng bout it...i cn say v r perfect together...dunno...since whn....i did not realise...wht i hv been mistakenly misjudge....v began too been drifted apart..well...i cant deny...i m jealous so what...?so what?i m worried bcoz i care...not like others FAKERS who act tht they r so concerned....but ta worst was...i cant believe...u r actually TOGETHER WITH THE FAKERS....well..tis is all my point of view...nt othrs,,,now....left me alone...wif no one to walk with....though wht u hv done..i noe u sacrifice alot...fr me..like no1-fren- ever does...i love u...i reli love you....fr tis i care..i reli care...i cant help u frm being wif sum1 else...-stupid jerk-den...i cant say anything...deep inside....i m reli hurt...reli hurt...cry fr days.....u din noe...we've been together fr 4 yrs plus.....reaching 5...but out memories....if u giv me 50 years...couldnt been restored....but...u wif him juz fr.....few months?n u trust him tat much...i m reli hurt....i hv aways said....dun trust any1 excep urself n ur family...making me ur exception...i wont bring you down...not like an othr frens tat u hv....i can sacrifise fr you...my time...helping u isnt a problem.....v r one.....i cant imagine living without u....maybe u can....bt ....i cant...without u..live wud be dull....no craziness....no laughter.....no loitering....bt if needed...yes i can live without u...bt....i wud be in pain.....i hate myself fr loving you tis much....v were so close....close till....i can walk with my eyes closed in ur hse..i dun mind u took my stuff fr even a year...i dun mind much...but...being wif u .....is eating me up.....i hate him.....hate till theres no words fr it.....everytym u talked....yes..i admit i cant stop scolding....its reli painfull...i dun like to compete fr a person....i will feel hurt.....very....its okay.....if tis is wat u wan...i will leave u alone....wun interupt anymore....go on ur own life.....i will slowly leave ur life....u mite be happier without me.....go ahead....wif huever u wan to be frens wif...fakers anot...its ur choice...up to you....i dun wan to suffer like tis anymore....i hope...1day in ur life...u will remember me....being ur bestfriend before....take care...love you...reli love you...

~woke up~
~Fion~

PiAnO....^^

This is me playing the piano~RiVeR FlOwS In You~..but..I'm not tat gud in it...gt sum mistakes...n nt reli clear...my bro was watching tv..Jz posting fr fun...sorry fr errors though..^^

KEM INTERGRASI..^^

HI~...now..7.20 am...dun call me an erly riser coz................i SLEPT AT 5.00 PM yesterday....so its like a baby sleeping time...haha 14 hours....well, now in my superb aching limbs n body....argh~but its worth it...hehe...i WENT TO KEM INTERGRASI!!!! ~v packing tat tym~

~the scenery~

~MINT~
in MINT-aka-nuclear research institute...^^ ...i tell u my agendas...which is reli reli fun.....i m sure i will regret it if i dun go...keke.....
ON ta 1st day-well we went to school in ta morning n guess wat??its WAS RAINING...omg....we went thr in ta noon..then gv SOME taklimat and A LOT of kena marah....n tats true...haih...v r humans ma..sure wanna talk wan....-like geese-den...v get our roomates...nono!tentmates...actually....luckily i wasnt left out like many others....i got to be wif LOH LING, KUAN LING ,MEI YEE N HER FREN-SORI..dunno ur name..^^-luckily....coz v r frens......luv u guys....muacks...-if loh ling see tis....she's gonna smack me...well nvm..haha-den v build our tents in ta jungle..n ours its kinda near to

~Our tent~

~the bathroom~very open..=.=

ta 'operation room' n toilet...blah...n v discovered 1 shortcut..to spare us our feet...keke -evil laughs.....ts gud loh ling is superb tall den she can help me ta shortie to tie ta tent..keke..-she cant stand in it though..-^^den v went to bath n den yay---eating time----in my tupperware..haha...at nite...wen our frens go pray..v had TRUE OR DARE...v go n spin aqilah's sunblock....wakaka....so funny n ta stars tat nte was reli magnificient....den v get divided into groups..actually i got group 2-but got sum havoc so v gotta get counted again...i got group 4...but i switched wif shamilli THANX shamilli..den SZE HOONG FRM GROUP 2 oso came to group 3....v din noe each othr practically until i went to ta camp...hehe so my great teammembers r LOH LING, ME, SZE HOONG, BECKY, FARAH, ZULAIKHA, FARD, AIN, IZMA, N LIYANA loh ling bcome ta ketua n i become ta penolong...THEY r superb i tell u...creative n special in their very own way...luv u guys...v din noe each othr bfre tis...-except ta form 5's...see everyday ma...haha..^^-n our group name is...............................VIRUZ..cool huh..our motto is -WhEn ViRuZ AtTaCk YoU WiLL ReGrET-wakaka...den got ice breaking...n i have to draw a bird in a mahjong paper...bt i end up drawing only in ta size of my palm....gudness!!ta fasilitators go n ask hu draw wan...i was like...me...n i laugh myself..haih...lame la..so...ltr...v go sleep..kinda noisy bt v manage to get up aT 5.15 AM..
Next day-after breakfast..den v start our -four things tat i thought i never do in life-except ta kayak thing..-viruz get to do IKTHIAR HIDUP first...they gv us a pail wif water, knives, parang, a plate, cups, stove, fly, matches, n 2 of so called square mini kuali..so i nid to light up fire...great...i cant...v cant..it was juz after rain..but ta cooking was superb..hehe..of cz la..not i cook wan...haha...v reli work hard as team mates...den v go KAYAKING....!!!!!!!!!!!!-SCREAMS-ITS SOOOOOOOOOO FUN!!me n loh ling go togthrn v go so fast n luckily v din knock ta tebing...n be thrown over...haha...den v did water crossing n reli sori to a GIRL...i terkick her leg wen swimming tat tym......gudness..bt i forgot her name..hehe..so we play water...haha..at noon...it time for............-drum rolls.-OBSTACLES ACTIVITES..-LIKE PLKN like tat n here...i reli learnt a lot..of courage, friendship..TEAMWORK...LOH LING is a reli gud ketua...she think of every1 punya safety n giv every1 get sum experience....first of all...v did commander crawl or smthng... n rope grating....all oso dirty od...but very cunted...loh ling had to do 4 tyms..i think by now her pants oso calar like wat od..hehe...every1 of my group manage to do it very well..tat tym i reli scared any 1 will hurt themself..bt luckily every1 is ok..^^so den v had to run across ta jambatan gantung my gudness...ltr...v walk on a hanging plank bt very shaky...i repeat..VERY SHAKY...N den hav to terus climb on a wall..so v made a strategy to go over it..bout 6 feet...hehe....v managed...so ltr..v gotta go tru tis:

~ v seriously did tis...~

~I fell twice in tis station..=.=~

~its unstable...ta plank is so small..haha~

a at nite..v had dinner then MALAM KEBUDAYAN!!v did dikir barat n acting...ltr v ate sum chicken n slept in ta CARPARK!!GUDNESS...wake up od...ta bones....got sound...krik kruk..hahahaha...yay!!v go do abselling!!me n sze hoong went together...haha....luv ya...den v two human up thr scared like dunno wat....kept on talking n talking...while v r coming down...haha p/s i sempat smile...haha..bt so messy...

~Can u imagine going off frm ta top?!!~

~Believe it anot...i did it...~swt u noe..

~Look at Loh Ling's long legs..she superb tall wei..~

~Lil Sze Hoong made it though she oso scared like me....giv me 5!^^~

~All my team mates whom i reli loved..^^~

~V won two hampers fr ta best team n dicipline...v couldn't do it without any of you..^^~

~Our hampers...~

~Farhana n I~

"me : Ni Xiang wo ma?

"Farhana : Bu, wo bu xiang ni~

"me : please.....~puppy eyes~

"Farhana : Ok..wo xiang ni...^^

-Hahahahhahahahahaha-

~Ur smile so sweet la~p/s- running oso can take pic...haha ^^

~Me, Sze Hoong, Loh Ling, Farah..^^~

~Teammates!~

~Mary, Qiqi, Umai, Ting Ting, Me, Ling Ling, Mei Mei~FRENZ FOREVER!

~Ta screen...~

~Go Mickey!~me n Loh Ling watches..^^

~Qi Qi, Me, Umai, Farhana~Buddies frvr!

~Darlings forever..^^~

~Dun be embarassed..muahaha..~Love ya!

~My new friend..Sze Hoong..miss ya!^^~

~Juz after ta abselling...fuh~v made it!~

~Our tent..~wanna kemas...

~ MeiMei n I ..frens frvr!~

~Happy Family~

Tis camp is very nice...miss tis camp, frens n experiences...^^